I haven't spoken about this day in so long. But today was not much happens Wednesday, how ever some stuff happened cause I am now going to blog about said stuff, and yeah. But in terms of school lessons I don't really do much. Just four hours of private study and double media. Lets find out what happened then shall we?
So I got to school at the usual time, and sat in the common room with Maddy as she played an addictive game. Then more people showed up and stuff happened then off to Private Study with Claire and Lish. I did some work failing to answer questions for a past paper for psychololololology (which I practically did all day). Also during P/S Claire and I hid Lish's stuff and wrote "I love Bananas" on her work she didn't notice for quite a while.
Then was breakytime and as per usual I cannot remember anything. So let's just head back to private study, but this time with Lish and Jassie. and Paul were being really annoying and we just threatened them and stuff and I got some more work done. And that was pretty much it. So now it is lunchtime and I saw with people and Giancarlo hid Tom's glasses and Jessie became headless and just a couple of other weird things.
After this I had double media where we did work on the exam stuff and then organised coursework. On the board we saw the letters WOTD and Jessie and I wondered what this would stand for and then I said "Well Otis Took Dick" so now this is my saying. Also Jessie started this weird silent laugh and that is now her new laugh. It was a pretty funny lesson.
Home, sweet, home and really random group chat conversations which I might discuss with you tomorrow. Oh you lucky bunch. But you are going to have to wait for that. See you in the 'morrow!
Basically, about me being mad and a little bit weird. I may offer advice on things, depends on my mood.
Wednesday 30 April 2014
Tuesday 29 April 2014
Some Strange Conversations...
Hey guys. Guess what? I'm going to blog about my day! YAY! Well it's not that yay, it wasn't complete quality entertainment and I don't remember much, but it'll do.
So today I went to SixyForm and only had double psychology. Which is bliss. My mum gave me a lift and I arrived at break, and was greeted by everyone, because they missed me (as I was ill yesterday) I felt so loved. Then the bell went and it was off to psychology where I felt smart, ate a freddo, and had some fun conversations with Claire and Maddy.
After this was Lunch and I sat with my friends as usual. At the end of mentor I didn't want to leave cause I wanted to spend more time with everyone, but Claire was all :'( and guilt tripping me. She left and I stayed but I felt superbad. However, staying resulted in me being part of a very interesting conversation. I can't remember exact details but I think it started with Emily touching my leg then I said that apparently that is 1/8 of an orgasm and we started talking about that then somehow we got into a conversation about masturbation and Connor was just shocked beyond belief.
Then I went home some point after more conversation, and met Claire and Lish on my way to the bus stop. I went and met Lish's Bunneh and it is so completely adorable! Then Claire and I left and got on the bus and had sexy fun times. I kid we just had some weird conversations. Then I got home and looked at this list of weird phobias. There's one for being afraid of things to your right? People. My favourites where these:
Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia- Fear of long words, because if you fear it you can't say the name of the phobia.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection, because it's funny to think people fear that.
OK that's pretty much all I have to say. I need to go sleep, it's been a confusing last couple of hours. I think my brain has just had enough. See you in the 'morrow!
So today I went to SixyForm and only had double psychology. Which is bliss. My mum gave me a lift and I arrived at break, and was greeted by everyone, because they missed me (as I was ill yesterday) I felt so loved. Then the bell went and it was off to psychology where I felt smart, ate a freddo, and had some fun conversations with Claire and Maddy.
After this was Lunch and I sat with my friends as usual. At the end of mentor I didn't want to leave cause I wanted to spend more time with everyone, but Claire was all :'( and guilt tripping me. She left and I stayed but I felt superbad. However, staying resulted in me being part of a very interesting conversation. I can't remember exact details but I think it started with Emily touching my leg then I said that apparently that is 1/8 of an orgasm and we started talking about that then somehow we got into a conversation about masturbation and Connor was just shocked beyond belief.
Then I went home some point after more conversation, and met Claire and Lish on my way to the bus stop. I went and met Lish's Bunneh and it is so completely adorable! Then Claire and I left and got on the bus and had sexy fun times. I kid we just had some weird conversations. Then I got home and looked at this list of weird phobias. There's one for being afraid of things to your right? People. My favourites where these:
Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia- Fear of long words, because if you fear it you can't say the name of the phobia.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection, because it's funny to think people fear that.
OK that's pretty much all I have to say. I need to go sleep, it's been a confusing last couple of hours. I think my brain has just had enough. See you in the 'morrow!
Monday 28 April 2014
Uneeded Stress
Right now, at this point in time, I seriously think I am done with School. My mind just can't focus, and there is something more important I just keep worrying about. 6th Form just feels like an unnecessary hassle. If I had a job right now I'm pretty sure I would just quit. Without a seconds thought.
I don't understand why we are put under so much pressure at this age. It can't be healthy? Can it? I mean some people can get so stressed out they just "rage quit" so most of their life is wasted. It's unfair. I know why we are doing this, because of Jobs and shit like that but they build it up too much. Like saying if you fail your life is pretty much meaningless. Which is like "Gee Thanks World!". Sometimes teenagers have enough to worry about, without exams. Like family issues, or friends stuff, or just bitchy people making your life a living hell.
It's just a bit like, all of my memories are mainly me at school. School is the only life I know. And what if something happens and I die tomorrow. I don't want to look back and think it was all just misery at school. I want to get out and just do something else. Maybe go traveling or just do something different everyday. Instead of falling into the same routine, of waking up early, and being all miserable about mornings. Going to school talking to friends lazily sitting in lessons listening to teachers drone on about work and exams then more talk to friends then more drone then getting home to freak outs and trying to distract yourself then more freak outs and then sleeping and knowing it's all just going to happen again tomorrow. All until the blissful weekend which you can never enjoy anymore cause you need to revise so you revise and do homework and panic and sleep. I just don't want that to be my life anymore.
I know if I get a job it is essentially going to be the same with going to work and coming homing, but I think less panic and stress will be involved than this. But I just need a long break. From school. To do my own thing. Cause right now I need a less stressful distraction from something which scares me so much I can't even sleep. And right now school stuff is just adding to it and I don't need that. Everyone's all but it's worth it in the end cause you can get a better future so stay focused and work hard and it will be fine. But I just can't, my mind can't stay focused, because of stupid fucking things I can't change, and nothing will be made clear until next year. Sometimes even thinking about it makes me physically sick, but there's nothing I nor anyone can do. So how can I focus on exams? In comparison they mean nothing to me, and I don't think anyone truly understands that.
Sorry I'm rambling. But it's 3:55am and I can't sleep because of this, and there's no-one else I can talk to at this time. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to go, or how to feel. I need to sleep cause I've got school but I just can't.
Wow if you read through that you must be super bored. Or just a stalker. Either way, thanks for listening I guess. Well reading. Lets see if I can get at least some sleep. See you in the 'morrow!
I don't understand why we are put under so much pressure at this age. It can't be healthy? Can it? I mean some people can get so stressed out they just "rage quit" so most of their life is wasted. It's unfair. I know why we are doing this, because of Jobs and shit like that but they build it up too much. Like saying if you fail your life is pretty much meaningless. Which is like "Gee Thanks World!". Sometimes teenagers have enough to worry about, without exams. Like family issues, or friends stuff, or just bitchy people making your life a living hell.
It's just a bit like, all of my memories are mainly me at school. School is the only life I know. And what if something happens and I die tomorrow. I don't want to look back and think it was all just misery at school. I want to get out and just do something else. Maybe go traveling or just do something different everyday. Instead of falling into the same routine, of waking up early, and being all miserable about mornings. Going to school talking to friends lazily sitting in lessons listening to teachers drone on about work and exams then more talk to friends then more drone then getting home to freak outs and trying to distract yourself then more freak outs and then sleeping and knowing it's all just going to happen again tomorrow. All until the blissful weekend which you can never enjoy anymore cause you need to revise so you revise and do homework and panic and sleep. I just don't want that to be my life anymore.
I know if I get a job it is essentially going to be the same with going to work and coming homing, but I think less panic and stress will be involved than this. But I just need a long break. From school. To do my own thing. Cause right now I need a less stressful distraction from something which scares me so much I can't even sleep. And right now school stuff is just adding to it and I don't need that. Everyone's all but it's worth it in the end cause you can get a better future so stay focused and work hard and it will be fine. But I just can't, my mind can't stay focused, because of stupid fucking things I can't change, and nothing will be made clear until next year. Sometimes even thinking about it makes me physically sick, but there's nothing I nor anyone can do. So how can I focus on exams? In comparison they mean nothing to me, and I don't think anyone truly understands that.
Sorry I'm rambling. But it's 3:55am and I can't sleep because of this, and there's no-one else I can talk to at this time. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to go, or how to feel. I need to sleep cause I've got school but I just can't.
Wow if you read through that you must be super bored. Or just a stalker. Either way, thanks for listening I guess. Well reading. Lets see if I can get at least some sleep. See you in the 'morrow!
Sunday 27 April 2014
Drastic Mood Changes
As I am a woman, I wouldn't say this is highly unlikely. But I have really strange mood swings. Like I go from being really happy to either really sad, angry or just meh really easily, and it is really hard to come back from that sometimes.
For example today. I was all ok having a little joke in group chat then all of a sudden I was sad. Like really sad, and I didn't like it. And it took me a while to get over it. Mainly I just indulged myself in a book. Which I guess helped because I mainly started thinking about the characters and the fictional world. But then there was this whole underlying thought related to the book which kind of got me down. But yeah.
The same thing happen with anger. Sometimes someone can just say one innocent thing but I get pissed off, then it just increases to a high rage. However sometimes I feel if I don't reach this level of high rage I will be ragey more often. Which is why sometimes I overload myself with sadness just so I wont be sad again for a while, unless something new happens.
Depressiveness is just so much fun. Like this whole school thing. It's all just nope. But when I'm at school I'm different and happy cause I am surrounded by friends, then as soon as I get home I'm all ARG again.
Ok I'm getting sleepy so cannot be bothered to continue. Mainly because my computer is being super UGH right now because some of the keys don't work properly mainly the spacebar so I either have to angrily hit it which is just too much effort or go back and correct mistakes which is more effort so it is all like please make it stop!
So yeah, See you in the 'morrow!
For example today. I was all ok having a little joke in group chat then all of a sudden I was sad. Like really sad, and I didn't like it. And it took me a while to get over it. Mainly I just indulged myself in a book. Which I guess helped because I mainly started thinking about the characters and the fictional world. But then there was this whole underlying thought related to the book which kind of got me down. But yeah.
The same thing happen with anger. Sometimes someone can just say one innocent thing but I get pissed off, then it just increases to a high rage. However sometimes I feel if I don't reach this level of high rage I will be ragey more often. Which is why sometimes I overload myself with sadness just so I wont be sad again for a while, unless something new happens.
Depressiveness is just so much fun. Like this whole school thing. It's all just nope. But when I'm at school I'm different and happy cause I am surrounded by friends, then as soon as I get home I'm all ARG again.
Ok I'm getting sleepy so cannot be bothered to continue. Mainly because my computer is being super UGH right now because some of the keys don't work properly mainly the spacebar so I either have to angrily hit it which is just too much effort or go back and correct mistakes which is more effort so it is all like please make it stop!
So yeah, See you in the 'morrow!
Tired Talk
Hey, I'm too tired to blog, but if I don't I wont be able to sleep. UGH. The life of a blogger. So what to do what to do... Well after reading a couple of friends blogs, I found they were all talking about the return to 6th form. So I'll just steal that from them.
Basically the pointless three day return was more of a social occasion to me more than anything else. On the first day there was no proper talk about impending exams so I kind of forgot about it and just spent time with my friends, and in the case of most of them I had not seen them in ages. And there wasn't really that much pressure. But I think that's because I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore.
However, being there with everyone made me realise if I wasn't there next year, I am probably going to miss out on a lot of stuff, and lose that time I get to spend with the ragtag group of awesomeness. Though I seriously feel I am not going to get into A2. I'm just not motivated enough, and I can't find that motivation. It's all more, we'll see what happens. But I am probably not going to like what happens.
Days like today help me forget I even have school to worry about, cause my mind is just on my social life. Which is great because I am so much happier, but I guess the outcome won't be so great.
Ok I think that is enough to satisfy you for a while. If not deal with it cause I am too sleepy to write anymore. *YAWN* Did anyone yawn whilst reading the word yawn? I know you did, don't lie to me. Anywho...I shall see you in the 'morrow!
Basically the pointless three day return was more of a social occasion to me more than anything else. On the first day there was no proper talk about impending exams so I kind of forgot about it and just spent time with my friends, and in the case of most of them I had not seen them in ages. And there wasn't really that much pressure. But I think that's because I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore.
However, being there with everyone made me realise if I wasn't there next year, I am probably going to miss out on a lot of stuff, and lose that time I get to spend with the ragtag group of awesomeness. Though I seriously feel I am not going to get into A2. I'm just not motivated enough, and I can't find that motivation. It's all more, we'll see what happens. But I am probably not going to like what happens.
Days like today help me forget I even have school to worry about, cause my mind is just on my social life. Which is great because I am so much happier, but I guess the outcome won't be so great.
Ok I think that is enough to satisfy you for a while. If not deal with it cause I am too sleepy to write anymore. *YAWN* Did anyone yawn whilst reading the word yawn? I know you did, don't lie to me. Anywho...I shall see you in the 'morrow!
Friday 25 April 2014
You Get a Tag and You Like It!
What is this? You promised us normality yesterday, and now you are doing another fucking tag?! I know, I know, I'm sorry. But in my defence, there is like 50 minutes left in the day, I can't remember anything that really happened today, and I have to post cause if not I feel really down. SO YOU GET A TAG AND YOU LIKE IT! (Found this on Tumblr)
1) First kiss? (IF you haven't had it, who do you want to kiss) ha umm... Not saying. But it was a girl. So yeah...
2) Funniest joke you know? Probably the one I heard the other day from Giancarlo: What do you call a cow with no legs? Ground Beef. What do you call a cow with three legs? Lean Beef. What do you call a cow with two legs? Your Mum. (I don't think your mum is a cow by the way)
3) Jeans, shorts, skirts, or dresses? Most definitely jeans. They are so comfy.
4) Have you found Jesus? Nope, and if it's like Where's Wally probably never will. I'm so bad at that book game thing.
5) Customized ringtone or generic? Customized. So when people ring Yoda speaks to me, and when I get a text it screams UNACCEPTABLE!
6) Favorite B-rated movie? What's a B-rated movie? *Googles this shit* Ok google didn't really help, cause it turns out I don't really watch those kinds of movies, so I'm going to say The Evil Dead (cause that's what google tells me)
7) Favorite superhero? Hmmm...Well I'm married to Superman, but I really like Spiderman. CONFLICTED.
8) Favorite Villain? No Brainer, Moriarty!
9) Favorite actor/actress? Hmm...Actor: probably Craig Roberts, Actress: Helena Bonham Carter
10) What kind of phone do you have? Samsung Galaxy Ace. And it's smashed, but still works!
11) Random fact about yourself. Sometimes when I think, I think in a welsh accent.
1) First kiss? (IF you haven't had it, who do you want to kiss) ha umm... Not saying. But it was a girl. So yeah...
2) Funniest joke you know? Probably the one I heard the other day from Giancarlo: What do you call a cow with no legs? Ground Beef. What do you call a cow with three legs? Lean Beef. What do you call a cow with two legs? Your Mum. (I don't think your mum is a cow by the way)
3) Jeans, shorts, skirts, or dresses? Most definitely jeans. They are so comfy.
4) Have you found Jesus? Nope, and if it's like Where's Wally probably never will. I'm so bad at that book game thing.
5) Customized ringtone or generic? Customized. So when people ring Yoda speaks to me, and when I get a text it screams UNACCEPTABLE!
6) Favorite B-rated movie? What's a B-rated movie? *Googles this shit* Ok google didn't really help, cause it turns out I don't really watch those kinds of movies, so I'm going to say The Evil Dead (cause that's what google tells me)
7) Favorite superhero? Hmmm...Well I'm married to Superman, but I really like Spiderman. CONFLICTED.
8) Favorite Villain? No Brainer, Moriarty!
9) Favorite actor/actress? Hmm...Actor: probably Craig Roberts, Actress: Helena Bonham Carter
10) What kind of phone do you have? Samsung Galaxy Ace. And it's smashed, but still works!
11) Random fact about yourself. Sometimes when I think, I think in a welsh accent.
Hope you liked that really super fun tag. Don't expect anything amazing tomorrow, probably just going to be more random bullshit. But I guess that's the charm of my blogs.
See you in the 'morrow!
Thursday 24 April 2014
Yay More Tags!
Hello, so today I went to Sixy form and did some work and had some laughs and fell on the floor, but I can't remember enough specifically so today you are going to get a tag. Super sarcastic yay! It may get a bit confusing because I answered some questions on different days but yeah figure it out for yourselves. Enjoy!
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? I don't like anyone at the minute.
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? I don't like anyone at the minute.
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you? my foot :/
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? It was about the funeral I attended today. I was all worried and such.
04: what are you listening to? Youtube videos.
05: what’s something you're not looking forward to? Failing the exams.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? Most probably at home, sleeping.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? Yes.
08: sex on the first date? No, however if you are really desperate for some and you feel you like if the relationship might not progress you might as well get something out of it.
09: kiss on the first date? If it is going well.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes :/
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Kind of. I really love some things, but I want other things to change.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? I'm going to address everyone as my chosen someone. No matter what anybody tells you, or how you feel, you are beautiful, and you are loved :)
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? It was about the funeral I attended today. I was all worried and such.
04: what are you listening to? Youtube videos.
05: what’s something you're not looking forward to? Failing the exams.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? Most probably at home, sleeping.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? Yes.
08: sex on the first date? No, however if you are really desperate for some and you feel you like if the relationship might not progress you might as well get something out of it.
09: kiss on the first date? If it is going well.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes :/
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Kind of. I really love some things, but I want other things to change.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? I'm going to address everyone as my chosen someone. No matter what anybody tells you, or how you feel, you are beautiful, and you are loved :)
13: what are three things you did today? Ate, cried and cuddled.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? I'd rather sleep at theirs.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? Bubblegum
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? I honestly have no idea if we are friends. I'd say we are acquaintances. Other than Scott the rest are just nope.
17: what is on your wrists right now? An elastic band.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with? Yeah, don't we all.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? No.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yeah I guess, it kind of sucks.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? I suppose I have.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? Nope.
23: how have you felt today? I just don't know anymore
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Not sure, whatever I want at the time. Right now I need new shoes.
25: what is wrong with you right now? So many things, can't explain. Neither have the time or the effort.
26: is there anyone you're really disappointed in? There's someone I'm a little disappointed in, not going to say who.
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? I don't really like either.
28: why aren't you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? Cause he turned into a bit of a dick.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? 11, twas talking to people on the faceybook.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Earlier today. Some weirdness. As usual.
31: what were you doing an hour ago? Trying to nap.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? Paige's party!
33: are you wearing jeans right now? Yes.
34: are you a patient person? Depends what I have to wait for, but mostly I don't think I am.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? yes definitely. But can they is the question.
36: favourite colour? BLUE!
37: did you have a dream last night? Yeah, really freaked me out.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? Jeans. Which if you read the answer to 33 you should have guessed.
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? Mum
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? My friends.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? Maybe, cause if I didn't like them back I'd feel really bad, but I'd like them to think they can trust me with this information.
42: do you like meeting new people? Ah I guess, I mean if they seem nice and a little bit odd I am more than welcome to the idea.
43: are you afraid of falling in love? Not really.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? Unfortunately.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Once or twice. By the way this sounds like you are coming on to me...
46: have you ever felt like you weren't good enough? That is my thought process like 93% of the time.
So that is that my merry little chums. More 6th Form tomorrow...yay. So you should get a more normal post. Well I say normal, as normal as it gets when it comes to me. Anywho....See you in the 'morrow!
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? I'd rather sleep at theirs.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? Bubblegum
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? I honestly have no idea if we are friends. I'd say we are acquaintances. Other than Scott the rest are just nope.
17: what is on your wrists right now? An elastic band.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with? Yeah, don't we all.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? No.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yeah I guess, it kind of sucks.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? I suppose I have.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? Nope.
23: how have you felt today? I just don't know anymore
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Not sure, whatever I want at the time. Right now I need new shoes.
25: what is wrong with you right now? So many things, can't explain. Neither have the time or the effort.
26: is there anyone you're really disappointed in? There's someone I'm a little disappointed in, not going to say who.
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? I don't really like either.
28: why aren't you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? Cause he turned into a bit of a dick.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? 11, twas talking to people on the faceybook.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Earlier today. Some weirdness. As usual.
31: what were you doing an hour ago? Trying to nap.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? Paige's party!
33: are you wearing jeans right now? Yes.
34: are you a patient person? Depends what I have to wait for, but mostly I don't think I am.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? yes definitely. But can they is the question.
36: favourite colour? BLUE!
37: did you have a dream last night? Yeah, really freaked me out.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? Jeans. Which if you read the answer to 33 you should have guessed.
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? Mum
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? My friends.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? Maybe, cause if I didn't like them back I'd feel really bad, but I'd like them to think they can trust me with this information.
42: do you like meeting new people? Ah I guess, I mean if they seem nice and a little bit odd I am more than welcome to the idea.
43: are you afraid of falling in love? Not really.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? Unfortunately.
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Once or twice. By the way this sounds like you are coming on to me...
46: have you ever felt like you weren't good enough? That is my thought process like 93% of the time.
So that is that my merry little chums. More 6th Form tomorrow...yay. So you should get a more normal post. Well I say normal, as normal as it gets when it comes to me. Anywho....See you in the 'morrow!
Wednesday 23 April 2014
Overall Success I Guess...
Well I guess that's it. No more holidays until my first exam. Ugh. Someone just take me away from all this. But I must admit my first day back at school in a few weeks wasn't so bad. I seemed to get into the habit quite easily and I got a good amount of work done. So overall success I guess. Ha that rhymed.
So today for some reason I woke up at six. SIX! But I guess this gave me enough time to get ready and even have some breakfast, which I rarely do cause I either never have the time or just cannot be bothered. I had some crumpets yum! Then headed to 6th where there were some curtains and everyone complained about them, then Mads told me she might leave :'( After this people were confused that Tyler was not wearing a suit (he always wears a suit).
Following this was double private study where I got a lot of work done. Then Maddy, Claire, Emily and I were talking about Birthdays. And then after this I went back to private study where Jamie started going on about Birthdays.
During lunch where we mainly sat around in the emptyish common room eating this oreo icecream thing, and saying bad jokes and pick-up lines. This was followed by double media where he didn't collect the work in which I completed during the first double private study >.< But the lesson was fun cause we were defining characters in Dracula using Propp's theory and I said that the sun was the helper because it killed Dracula. It was pretty funny.
Then I had some random conversations with strangers on the late bus, and then got home
Anywho, now I am back to school, more work shall begin. HA maybe. But I'll definitely try. See you in the 'morrow!
So today for some reason I woke up at six. SIX! But I guess this gave me enough time to get ready and even have some breakfast, which I rarely do cause I either never have the time or just cannot be bothered. I had some crumpets yum! Then headed to 6th where there were some curtains and everyone complained about them, then Mads told me she might leave :'( After this people were confused that Tyler was not wearing a suit (he always wears a suit).
Following this was double private study where I got a lot of work done. Then Maddy, Claire, Emily and I were talking about Birthdays. And then after this I went back to private study where Jamie started going on about Birthdays.
During lunch where we mainly sat around in the emptyish common room eating this oreo icecream thing, and saying bad jokes and pick-up lines. This was followed by double media where he didn't collect the work in which I completed during the first double private study >.< But the lesson was fun cause we were defining characters in Dracula using Propp's theory and I said that the sun was the helper because it killed Dracula. It was pretty funny.
Then I had some random conversations with strangers on the late bus, and then got home
Anywho, now I am back to school, more work shall begin. HA maybe. But I'll definitely try. See you in the 'morrow!
Tuesday 22 April 2014
A Crying Domino Effect
I was not looking forward to today, not at all. I would have much rather been where I had originally planned to go which was bowling with my friends to celebrate Siobhan's Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOBHAN! But sadly that could not happen, because I had to go to a funeral.
Funerals just suck, but I guess it's closure. Cause now you know the person is truly at peace and other things like that. But I was still scared about it. I couldn't sleep and I was just worried I was going to have some kind of breakdown in front of people. Also I had to light a candle and I kept thinking I was going to muck up and I really didn't want to because it was so important. So yeah. I think I was ok, well as ok you can be at a funeral. When I got there I was strong and when I saw the coffin I was still all "you'll be fine" but when I got inside it was just ugh.
It kind of made everything so real. Because up until now I never really admitted to myself that my granddad had passed away not 2 weeks before. It's just strange, and I don't really like talking about it. Cause I feel like mentioning it means I'm just looking for sympathy or something, when I'm not, and I don't particularly like people knowing my business. But yeah I guess I need to talk about it a little, cause bottling up my feelings isn't good.
So basically inside the little place I was all yeah it'll be ok. But then next to me Hal started crying, so I instantly started crying cause I hated seeing her upset, and apparently she was crying because dad was upset, and because we were crying my mum cried. So it was like a crying domino effect. It wasn't good. But after this we were all better. Cause like I said Closure.
After this thing, we had a gathering where I spoke to some people I have never met before. Then the family and I went to the pub.
But in conclusion Funerals suck, but without them you wouldn't be able to really move past the death of a loved one. Hmm...Anywho sorry about a kind of a down blog, but yeah...School tomorrow. GREAT! (Said super sarcastically) Ugh. See you in the 'morrow!
Funerals just suck, but I guess it's closure. Cause now you know the person is truly at peace and other things like that. But I was still scared about it. I couldn't sleep and I was just worried I was going to have some kind of breakdown in front of people. Also I had to light a candle and I kept thinking I was going to muck up and I really didn't want to because it was so important. So yeah. I think I was ok, well as ok you can be at a funeral. When I got there I was strong and when I saw the coffin I was still all "you'll be fine" but when I got inside it was just ugh.
It kind of made everything so real. Because up until now I never really admitted to myself that my granddad had passed away not 2 weeks before. It's just strange, and I don't really like talking about it. Cause I feel like mentioning it means I'm just looking for sympathy or something, when I'm not, and I don't particularly like people knowing my business. But yeah I guess I need to talk about it a little, cause bottling up my feelings isn't good.
So basically inside the little place I was all yeah it'll be ok. But then next to me Hal started crying, so I instantly started crying cause I hated seeing her upset, and apparently she was crying because dad was upset, and because we were crying my mum cried. So it was like a crying domino effect. It wasn't good. But after this we were all better. Cause like I said Closure.
After this thing, we had a gathering where I spoke to some people I have never met before. Then the family and I went to the pub.
But in conclusion Funerals suck, but without them you wouldn't be able to really move past the death of a loved one. Hmm...Anywho sorry about a kind of a down blog, but yeah...School tomorrow. GREAT! (Said super sarcastically) Ugh. See you in the 'morrow!
Monday 21 April 2014
Easter!!!
Ok before we begin I am going to simply remind those of why we celebrate easter, it's all cause Jesus was murdered on a cross (hence hot cross buns) and came back to life leaving an empty tomb (hence easter eggs), Just remember that kids. So this post is going to be about how I celebrated Easter.
I went to an infamous Eddie party, however I feel there have been better ones. This was more just chilling at someone else's house with a group of friends with small amounts of alcohol. So I got there about 5:30, and Eddie, Giancarlo and Jessie were already there. Once there we went on the trampoline and we bounced and did this weird thing that made me laugh uncontrollably. Then we threw sticky leaves at Giancarlo's crotch and he did a very sexy dance for us.
After this we went inside and painted eggs. I named mine Eggsaviour simply for the pun. Painted him blue and gave him one really big googly eye and one really small one. He was so special. But then after a while we gave up painting eggs and decided to paint my arm instead. It was multi-coloured and sparkly, and even had it's own set of googly eyes. I was a work of art.
Next we ate a ton of delicious Jelly shots, and played on GTAV where we all killed ourselves in various ways. Giancarlo shot a grenade at a policeman and blew himself up in the process. Momo and grenades always seems to end in a suicide mission. Then Tom arrived and we played a racing game and it took Jessie like 15 minutes to make one lap of the map out of 99. This was going to be a long race. Mainly because she drove backwards and then decided to drive straight into Eddie as he came round for lap wto. It was pretty entertaining.
Some point during this I turned ultimate Hipster and we took some selfies, and Jessie got very obsessed with this 1Up toy and kept making it make the noise, and started making sex jokes around it. From here though I felt a bit down. Mainly cause I overheard a conversation between Eddie, Tom and Jessie, which they probably thought I couldn't hear. I hate it when that happens. I hate it when people talk about me behind my back. So I was really down and went and laid on the floor on the other side of the room.
Here the group kind of split, Momes and I were sat at one end watching Monty Python on TV which was really weird, and the others were playing games. Then were some random conversations and some watching In The Flesh then sleepy times. Where apparently I spasmed a lot, which I hate. Ugh. Does anyone else spasm while they sleep?
So that was pretty much it. A fun easter. This was on Saturday by the way, so sorry again about not blogging but this was why. I still can't get over the fact I missed a day :/ Anywho I shall leave you to whatever you are going to do. See you in the 'morrow!
I went to an infamous Eddie party, however I feel there have been better ones. This was more just chilling at someone else's house with a group of friends with small amounts of alcohol. So I got there about 5:30, and Eddie, Giancarlo and Jessie were already there. Once there we went on the trampoline and we bounced and did this weird thing that made me laugh uncontrollably. Then we threw sticky leaves at Giancarlo's crotch and he did a very sexy dance for us.
After this we went inside and painted eggs. I named mine Eggsaviour simply for the pun. Painted him blue and gave him one really big googly eye and one really small one. He was so special. But then after a while we gave up painting eggs and decided to paint my arm instead. It was multi-coloured and sparkly, and even had it's own set of googly eyes. I was a work of art.
Next we ate a ton of delicious Jelly shots, and played on GTAV where we all killed ourselves in various ways. Giancarlo shot a grenade at a policeman and blew himself up in the process. Momo and grenades always seems to end in a suicide mission. Then Tom arrived and we played a racing game and it took Jessie like 15 minutes to make one lap of the map out of 99. This was going to be a long race. Mainly because she drove backwards and then decided to drive straight into Eddie as he came round for lap wto. It was pretty entertaining.
Some point during this I turned ultimate Hipster and we took some selfies, and Jessie got very obsessed with this 1Up toy and kept making it make the noise, and started making sex jokes around it. From here though I felt a bit down. Mainly cause I overheard a conversation between Eddie, Tom and Jessie, which they probably thought I couldn't hear. I hate it when that happens. I hate it when people talk about me behind my back. So I was really down and went and laid on the floor on the other side of the room.
Here the group kind of split, Momes and I were sat at one end watching Monty Python on TV which was really weird, and the others were playing games. Then were some random conversations and some watching In The Flesh then sleepy times. Where apparently I spasmed a lot, which I hate. Ugh. Does anyone else spasm while they sleep?
So that was pretty much it. A fun easter. This was on Saturday by the way, so sorry again about not blogging but this was why. I still can't get over the fact I missed a day :/ Anywho I shall leave you to whatever you are going to do. See you in the 'morrow!
Sunday 20 April 2014
The Bus Rage
I am so sorry. I have failed you. Yesterday I broke my promise and did not post, mainly because I was out practically all day. The worst part was the day prior I had prepared a blog for you, but I overslept so I had no time to post it and now I feel I have just let you all down. I have let myself down. And for that I am truly sorry. I beg for your forgiveness. From now on I swear I shall never miss another day again, until the day I die. I feel so bad. :'( But here have my prepared blog a day late. It's not enough, but I hope it shall suffice.
"Sometimes I really hate being a Horsfordinian (it's what I call people who live in Horsford by the way) Because if you can't drive, and have parents who often refuse to drive you places, you have to rely on one form of transport. The First Group Bus Service. Which is usually pretty good, and I enjoy it, cause I have an unlimited bus pass that lasts for a year so I can travel whenever I want. But you guessed it, I'm only blogging about it if I am going to rant about it. So let the ranting commence!
In that fun introductory paragraph, which I bet you all skim read by the way, I included the phrase "travel whenever I want". Obviously that isn't strictly true. Because buses come every 20 minutes and even then it isn't guaranteed they turn up on time or even at all which I have found out in some cases. Also buses stop after a certain time.
FOR EXAMPLE:
On Monday to Friday the buses start at about 6:30 so from there I can travel between my home and Long Stratton at most parts of the day until about 19:18 which is my last chance to escape the incredibly boring town in which I live. And when traveling home I can be back from anytime between 8:00 and 19:00. And I know what you are thinking. So you can leave Horsford on a bus after the last one that takes you home? Well, yes and no. Basically in order to come home after this you have to wait until 23:24. Yep. This is why I rage because you really need a bus in between that time. Like at least have one at 21:00 or something people! Just saying.
On Saturdays the buses are pretty much the same as the rest of the week.
But then there is the day where you are pretty much screwed, Sunday. For some fucked up reason, the buses on Sunday just hate Horsford. So on this joyous day (said very sarcastically) you can leave your house to travel in the direction of the city at 9:07. Yep earliest bus. Then another bus will arrive at 10:07, and that is it. From here you can no longer take a bus to the city. I know complete and utter bullshit. Especially for me as I didn't even know that time exists on a Sunday for I am too busy in the land of dreams. But the Sunday Bus rage does not end here. Let's talk about heading back to Horsford. There are only two buses. The first leaves Castle Meadow at 16:45, and the other leaves there at 17:48. NDBFKSALBOALBYDB\VJHLBKGAHDVOBVFHZDJBAVOB! So for those of you who have worked that out you have to spend at least 6 hours in the city. And I have done this before and I can tell you it gets very boring.
Not only this people but the Sunday bus times continue on Public Holidays. So yesterday and Monday I am stuck in Horsford. Woop! This needs to change! Like now. I mean I understand lack of buses on things like Christmas and Easter Sunday but really, an ordinary Sunday? I know it's the day of rest but what if I want to rest elsewhere? UGH
Ugh, rage over. For now."
See you in the 'morrow!
"Sometimes I really hate being a Horsfordinian (it's what I call people who live in Horsford by the way) Because if you can't drive, and have parents who often refuse to drive you places, you have to rely on one form of transport. The First Group Bus Service. Which is usually pretty good, and I enjoy it, cause I have an unlimited bus pass that lasts for a year so I can travel whenever I want. But you guessed it, I'm only blogging about it if I am going to rant about it. So let the ranting commence!
In that fun introductory paragraph, which I bet you all skim read by the way, I included the phrase "travel whenever I want". Obviously that isn't strictly true. Because buses come every 20 minutes and even then it isn't guaranteed they turn up on time or even at all which I have found out in some cases. Also buses stop after a certain time.
FOR EXAMPLE:
On Monday to Friday the buses start at about 6:30 so from there I can travel between my home and Long Stratton at most parts of the day until about 19:18 which is my last chance to escape the incredibly boring town in which I live. And when traveling home I can be back from anytime between 8:00 and 19:00. And I know what you are thinking. So you can leave Horsford on a bus after the last one that takes you home? Well, yes and no. Basically in order to come home after this you have to wait until 23:24. Yep. This is why I rage because you really need a bus in between that time. Like at least have one at 21:00 or something people! Just saying.
On Saturdays the buses are pretty much the same as the rest of the week.
But then there is the day where you are pretty much screwed, Sunday. For some fucked up reason, the buses on Sunday just hate Horsford. So on this joyous day (said very sarcastically) you can leave your house to travel in the direction of the city at 9:07. Yep earliest bus. Then another bus will arrive at 10:07, and that is it. From here you can no longer take a bus to the city. I know complete and utter bullshit. Especially for me as I didn't even know that time exists on a Sunday for I am too busy in the land of dreams. But the Sunday Bus rage does not end here. Let's talk about heading back to Horsford. There are only two buses. The first leaves Castle Meadow at 16:45, and the other leaves there at 17:48. NDBFKSALBOALBYDB\VJHLBKGAHDVOBVFHZDJBAVOB! So for those of you who have worked that out you have to spend at least 6 hours in the city. And I have done this before and I can tell you it gets very boring.
Not only this people but the Sunday bus times continue on Public Holidays. So yesterday and Monday I am stuck in Horsford. Woop! This needs to change! Like now. I mean I understand lack of buses on things like Christmas and Easter Sunday but really, an ordinary Sunday? I know it's the day of rest but what if I want to rest elsewhere? UGH
Ugh, rage over. For now."
See you in the 'morrow!
Friday 18 April 2014
Anywhere But Here
OK today I have been revising. I know, I know more talk of revision, but if that's all I've been doing that's all I can really talk about. But I'm not going to be all advicey or moany cause I've done that already. So instead I shall talk about what I have been thinking about due to the stress of revision.
Basically, I just want to go back to being a child. Life was so easy cause you had no real idea of what the fuck was going on. Exams never worried you, jobs never worried you, and people tended to be less bitchy. Oh the simpler times. When you are a youngling it is also more socially acceptable to say and do stupid things, cause you are a child and you know no better. I miss being a kid, I spent most of my time wanting to grow up and be treated like an adult, but now I'm here I don't really like so please may I go back...please?
As I know this is highly unlikely I have another path I wish I could be on right now. And that is the path of the future. I just want to be at the stage in my life where I have a job and a house and exams are long behind me, so I can start living. I know technically I have been living, but you know what I mean, and if you don't, figure it out.
In conclusion I want to be anywhere but here. Take me to the past, or future, just get me out of the present. Well I wouldn't mind being this age if I had no exams so I guess if I had to pick any parallel universe I'd chose one without exams. Ugh ok this has been a good little distraction, but I best get back to work. So I can succeed and yaddayaddayadda.
See you in the 'morrow!
Basically, I just want to go back to being a child. Life was so easy cause you had no real idea of what the fuck was going on. Exams never worried you, jobs never worried you, and people tended to be less bitchy. Oh the simpler times. When you are a youngling it is also more socially acceptable to say and do stupid things, cause you are a child and you know no better. I miss being a kid, I spent most of my time wanting to grow up and be treated like an adult, but now I'm here I don't really like so please may I go back...please?
As I know this is highly unlikely I have another path I wish I could be on right now. And that is the path of the future. I just want to be at the stage in my life where I have a job and a house and exams are long behind me, so I can start living. I know technically I have been living, but you know what I mean, and if you don't, figure it out.
In conclusion I want to be anywhere but here. Take me to the past, or future, just get me out of the present. Well I wouldn't mind being this age if I had no exams so I guess if I had to pick any parallel universe I'd chose one without exams. Ugh ok this has been a good little distraction, but I best get back to work. So I can succeed and yaddayaddayadda.
See you in the 'morrow!
Wednesday 16 April 2014
Revision Makes Me Doge...
More revision today. Such fun, much joy. Ugh see what it is doing to me? It's turning me into Doge! This must end now. But revision to me is becoming more and more like do I have to?
The only reason I am revising is because I want to continue into A2. At this rate that probably isn't going to happen. But I'm scared if I don't continue with 6th form I'm going to lose contact with my friends. I mean I'd try my hardest. But it's like with Paige, you start to run out of things to talk about, cause everything is based on memories. And it just kind of sucks. Cause my friends are awesome. Besides I don't really know what I'd do without 6th form. I'd try and get a job but that will probably take time and so I'd spend most of my days being bored.
So until then I will revise, but if I can't get into A2 there is no way I am repeating the year. No way. I hope I get in. But revision is so ugh, and I am at the point where I just want to throw in the towel. This is where I show you a video Hal found. It perfectly describes my situation. So here:
See you in the 'morrow!
The only reason I am revising is because I want to continue into A2. At this rate that probably isn't going to happen. But I'm scared if I don't continue with 6th form I'm going to lose contact with my friends. I mean I'd try my hardest. But it's like with Paige, you start to run out of things to talk about, cause everything is based on memories. And it just kind of sucks. Cause my friends are awesome. Besides I don't really know what I'd do without 6th form. I'd try and get a job but that will probably take time and so I'd spend most of my days being bored.
So until then I will revise, but if I can't get into A2 there is no way I am repeating the year. No way. I hope I get in. But revision is so ugh, and I am at the point where I just want to throw in the towel. This is where I show you a video Hal found. It perfectly describes my situation. So here:
See you in the 'morrow!
"GET THE F*** OUT OF OUR BASE!"
Hello. So yesterday I mentioned how it was my birthday and the fact that I was going laser tag with my friends to celebrate this. So it only makes logical sense that I write about that. And obviously it is going to be in this post because why else would I mention it here?
My day started at home (well duh)where I got some presents and stuff and Hal kept telling me she could not believe I was 17. Claire also said the same thing to me when I was on the bus with her, traveling to the city. But in fairness I do look about 14. On the bus she gave me her present. From here I pretty much just flirted with Claire the entire time.
Once in the city we headed to the meeting place (even though we were like 20 minutes early). When there Claire bought me a shake, which was delicious. But I couldn't really enjoy it as practically everyone turned up at once thrusting presents in my direction and I started opening them in the middle of Chapelfield and then had to carry them round the city.
So then we went to the laser tag place, and people were playing on the arcade game and the rest of us just sat around chitchatting. And then we headed into the briefing room. Which was fun because you realised who wore stupid clothing that lit up under the lights. Then the guy briefed us and we were also joined by a random guy. Greg. Well at least I think his name was Greg, Emma's convinced it was Craig. Hmm...Anywho at the end he asked I there were any questions so I asked if he has had a nice day, cause I'm nice.
THEN TIME FOR WAR. It was Red (Maddy, Tom, Emma, Emily, Siobhan, Lish, Amy and Connor) vs Blue (Claire, Paige, Jessie, Momo, Eddie, Greg, and myself). It was an incredible game full of chaos and lots of shooting and shouting. For example every time some when went in their base I would shout to them "GET THE FUCK OUT OF OUR BASE" Then the rest of my team would join me and help kill them. I spent a lot of time just shooting Lish repeatedly. That was pretty fun, but I also got shot a lot, by Maddy when I was trying to raid their base. One time I laid down as a form of surrender and they left me alone so I got up shot their base, killed it and ran like hell.
Unfortunately we lost. But it was only because it was Maddy's first time playing laser tag and we let her win, cause it was her birthday too...Yep that is the only reason. However just before we let I told Greg that he did a great job unless we lost, in which case I would blame it on him. So I guess Thanks a lot Greg ugh.
After the exhausting game we went to Pizza hut. Because I felt bad making people pay or Ed's DIner. So of to Pizza hut we went. Here there was pretty much a split in the group as the table was so long I could barely talk to the people at the other end. But that didn't stop me from flirting with Claire ;) I ate some pizza while the group debated as to why me and some others ate crust first. Cause that's how you do it! And then we spoke a lot about different things.
After Pizza Hut we wandered around Chapelfield, and Emma, Emily, Connor and myself went into the Disney Store and were discussing Disney things while Connor looked completely awkward. Then some people split off and we headed for Primark, because Lish really likes it in Primark ;). Then we headed for the bus. where Emma, Emily, Claire, and I talked about some random things.
Then I went home and me and Hal had a sleepover downstairs, whilst eating some Yorkshire Puddings at midnight to finish my birthday celebration.
Overall, a fucking good day, and I would love to do it again. Until that time, I shall blog about my usual shizzle. How fun for you. See you in the 'morrow!
Monday 14 April 2014
Happy Birthday to...Well Me.
Today's the day. I'm 17. And I feel no different. None whatsoever. It gets you thinking what is the point in birthdays? Cause I'm not too bothered about gifts and cards. I'm just using it as an excuse to see friends. Which is exactly what I am doing today. I am going to play laser tag and then go to Ed's Diner. Yeah!
Not only this but today is my new friend Maddy's Birthday. I know what are the chances. In my group of friends there are a couple of birthday clashes. Maddy and me, Jessie and Connor, Claire and Eddie, the triplets, but they don't really count because they are related. But still today is Maddy's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I haven't known Maddy as long as my other friends, but sometimes it feels like I have. Cause she's just so awesome. She is Superman! So I hope she enjoys her 17th and together we shall use magic outside of hogwarts.
But yeah it's still my birthday today. Another year on this planet. It's been a weird 16 years of life. But I probably wouldn't change anything about it. I mean I would like an exact repeat of these 16 years, because that wouldn't be fun for me, and others. But right now all is good, and I think I'm going to enjoy this year.
However I really want it to be my 18 birthday. Think of all the things I can do, drink, get tested for HD, BUY SCISSORS! I'll be living the dream when I buy that pair of scissors.
Anywho I best go celebrate my 17th year on earth with the ragtag group of awesomeness. Going to be such a good day. See you in the 'morrow!
Not only this but today is my new friend Maddy's Birthday. I know what are the chances. In my group of friends there are a couple of birthday clashes. Maddy and me, Jessie and Connor, Claire and Eddie, the triplets, but they don't really count because they are related. But still today is Maddy's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I haven't known Maddy as long as my other friends, but sometimes it feels like I have. Cause she's just so awesome. She is Superman! So I hope she enjoys her 17th and together we shall use magic outside of hogwarts.
But yeah it's still my birthday today. Another year on this planet. It's been a weird 16 years of life. But I probably wouldn't change anything about it. I mean I would like an exact repeat of these 16 years, because that wouldn't be fun for me, and others. But right now all is good, and I think I'm going to enjoy this year.
However I really want it to be my 18 birthday. Think of all the things I can do, drink, get tested for HD, BUY SCISSORS! I'll be living the dream when I buy that pair of scissors.
Anywho I best go celebrate my 17th year on earth with the ragtag group of awesomeness. Going to be such a good day. See you in the 'morrow!
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