The Dawning

Why has nobody been posting? I have nothing to read! I guess if they are busy though it's not really their fault. I just enjoy reading whatever they post about, it kills time. And I can steal ideas for when I have nothing to blog about. But today I shall blog about school, so it doesn't really bother me in that sense.

So Sixy Form. Today I had the morning off which is usually heaven, cause I get to sleep. And sleep is very important to me. But today I awoke from my slumber early to finish some Biology work, which she didn't even check so I woke up for nothing! I got to school earlier to try and finish this work as well, but once it was done I spoke to Jessie in the Study centre about awesome racing car double beds and media exams. Mainly because it dawned on me that my first two exams will be over this time next week. Yeah I should be revising and not blogging. 

But blog I must do so I shall try and make this quick. I had break after this and sat in the common room and spoke to people about dreams and questioned Lish about potatoes. Look at that I finally remembered what happened at break time! After this was double Biology where our teacher started talking to us about exams and ugh but it seemed like a good lesson from what I remember. 

Then it was lunch and we sat around talking to Lish about Spuds and then I texted him, but she ruined my plan! DAMMIT LISH! Next we had psychology but I really could not be bothered to go to psychology, however we only really had an hour with a teacher and we spent the next hour in the common room, and most of the time was spent making sexual references. Claire and I also ate some calipos. 

After all this Claire, Aims, Emily and I went on the late bus, and Claire and I spent most of our time talking to Tom about his pointless "fight" and then I accidently revealed a secret because I am an incredibly bad liar. Like seriously if someone asks me a direct question if I try to lie I can easily give it away just by tone of voice or facial expression. DAMN THIS CURSE. 

And that was pretty much my day. So umm yeah. See you in the 'morrow!

Bunny!

I'm tired. Like really tired. And I'm not sure if it is because of lack of sleep, or I'm just fed up. Probably a combination of the two. I'm not really all that up for blogging right now. Originally I was all set to write a post about my day, but shit has happened and I'm not in a good place. I'll be ok though, so if you are worrying don't worry about it. I'm really sorry but I just can't write a full on post today. There's too much going on in my head I can't focus and it will all end up like gobbledegook. So I shall leave you with this picture of a Bunny.

See you in the 'morrow!

Onesie Hell Of A Weekend

Why Hello There! So today I am going to talk about my wonderful weekend and what went down and shizzle. Basically as you may or may not know, yesterday I went to a sleepover to celebrate my friend Paige's 17th Birthday. And it was awesome. 

So I got a lift in with my mum and met Momo and Jass on the way so I walked the last leg of it with them. We got to her house and stood there questioning which one was going to knock when Paige walked out. She was a little scared to see us standing there. This might of had something to do with us being the first ones there. Shortly Kez and Claire turned up then we had to wait for Lish before we really did anything. When Lish got there we mainly chatted about random stuff. Then played many games of Uno where some friendships were most definitely broken. 

After this there was a lot of sitting and lying on each other and just general conversations. This was then followed by food, Pizza, Garlic Bread and Wedges. Yum! So more fun in the teepee after this and we wore some onesies and looked FABULAS! I was a penguin and not to be vain or anything but I think I looked supercute. However my feet were annoying me because it made me walk funny.  Then we bashed a pinata and it was hilarious. They are the greatest creation ever. After this Kezia left us :(

But then it got super cold so when we got back inside and just all snuggled together because it was so cold. During this snuggle we seemed to have a lot of conversations about sex and sex related topics. Then slowly we went to sleep. I was incredibly cold and incredibly uncomfortable. Lish stole my duvet so I stole Claire's cover and then we woke up around 4 to sort out this kerfuffle. Then I was awoken by everyone around 8 in the morning. WHAT IS THIS? 8AM! ON THE WEEKEND?! Ugh. but I awoke and got dressed. Then Jessie and Momo left. So it was just Claire, Lish, Paige, and I eating breakfast whilst playing pass the parcel.

After this I went to my nanny's and spent some time there. I found these toy cars in her shed which I used to play with as a child :') the memories, the feels. It was too much. And we spoke about some random things and then I can home and had some random facebook conversations, and made my tongue bleed by accidentally biting it :/

Anywho that was my weekend. It was great to spend it with my friends.See you in the 'morrow!

Night in the Teepee

Hello once again for another fantastical blog post. Wait what's going on you are writing this in the middle of the day? Are you feeling well? Yes imaginary person I invented just to ask me pointless questions so I can answer them and fill up space cause I secretly having nothing to post about, I am feeling fine. But I will not be able to blog later for I shall be at a sleepover. That means you get a wonderful post about my weekend events tomorrow! YAY!

So, what am I going to blog about now? Cause I have to since I promised to write a daily blog and I have already failed you once before and I have never forgiven myself for it even though none of you probably even care. BUT I CARE! Anywho...I need to write something now so lets see...I guess I could blog about... yeah I got nothing. Hmm. I'm in a bit of a pickle. 

Ok I got something. It may not be that interesting but you are going to read it and like it. Basically my thought process was I'm really looking forward to this sleepover, mainly because last year when I went it was awesome, So I thought, why not tell you all about the last one!

Well it was about the same time last year and my friend Paige had a sleepover for her birthday. We all slept in a Teepee for the night in her garden and it was awesome. We played with balloons and had this strange game with dares and stuff. We watched some films and we cuddled with some bunnies and guinea pigs. Oh they were so cute. Then we went back into the teepee tent and chatted and ate and then after it got dark we forgot to put one of Paige's rabbits back in it's cage. OOPS! So we all went out with phone flashlights and tried to hunt down the creature. It ran under a shed and from there it was mission impossible. Some of us were going round the back and getting sticks to try and poke her to run to someone at either end, but this wasn't working and some people just gave up and went back into the tent, but not me. I stayed and ended up scratching my arm because of the shed :/ But guys it was all ok. Because we found this large stick which Paige tried to use to poke the rabbit my way but she pushed it too far under the shed and couldn't get it back. But luckily I could reach the stick but after trying to pull it out and move it to where the rabbit had moved to I managed to snap it in half. But I had a master plan. I put one half of the stick under the shed and pushed it towards the rabbit as far as I could, then using the other half I pushed the stick even further and it gave her a little nudge and she ran to Paige and all was good!

Then after all that excitement we went back into the tent and some people decided to settle down and sleep. I stayed up and Jessie and I realised Pac-man was a Pac-Schlut and then Giancarlo snuggled up to her as he slept so we took some photographic evidence. Then she fell asleep and it was just Paige and I chitchatting and throwing stuff and Lish and Claire while they slept. In the morning we all realised that Amy and Kez had hoarded a bunch of sweets from the previous night, and then we played some twister and that's all i can really remember.

So yeah. A post today earlier than usual. Hope you enjoyed the wonderful story of last year. Not many people are going this time round but I hope it can be as fun! Yeah so I best got get ready, See you in the 'morrow!

So Then...

Hello readers of my blog! Welcome to another post which I am writing incredibly late, mainly because I have been catching up with youtube ever since I got home. But Elli you should be revising for your upcoming exams which are in less than 2 weeks. SHUT UP! I know! But I don't want to think about them I need a break. You take too many breaks. I know :/ Oh well I shall face the consequences. 

Basically today I went to 6th form and had no psychology lesson and just sat in the common room with Maddy going through papers and chitchatting about life. Then was break where we were interrogating Lish about her and this guy. Then it twas media and my computer wouldn't play soundy sounds so I had to switch computers. Then it was a minute mentor session. Gotta love my mentor. Then it was lunch where I played more 2048 and had some general chitchat. Then was biology where we did this paper thing. Then I had a dentist appointment. Then I went to see my nanna. Then I went home and you know the rest.

Wow I mentioned then a lot. I tend to avoid repeating the opening of a sentence a lot to make it more interesting, as that's what English teachers taught me. But I realised there are certain words I use a lot more than others. Like So. I love the word so. I use it too much though. Mainly with yeah. I'm like so yeah. like constantly, usually after I explain complex things and I'm not really sure why I said it and how to continue because it gets awkward. 

Why am I even talking about this? Oh yeah cause I don't really have anything else to talk about. So (oh look another so) I'm probably going to stop now. And just move on. This should be enough to satisfy you for a couple of minutes. See you in the 'morrow!

My Name's Elli, and I'm an Addict

Yes you read that title correctly. I am an addict. So what am I addicted to? You might ask. Sex? Drugs? Alcohol? No. I'm addicted to 2048. Thanks to Amy Alice Forder.

So what is 2048, those of you who are not cultured enough might ask. Well it's this app which I have on my phone where you have to multiply numbers on tiles to form bigger numbers, to reach the goal of 2048. When you say it like that it isn't that interesting. But it's extremely addictive. Trust me. I only started playing the game today and I've played practically non-stop and seem to be at the same stage as my friends. 

EVEN AS I AM BLOGGING I AM PLAYING. I need serious help. I feel this calls for an intervention. Cause when I close my eyes I can just see the tiles moves with the numbers on it. I'm probably going to be sent to a mental institute because of this damn game. I'm never usually one of those people who follows the crowd and plays the popular games. Like Flappy bird. I never really saw the interest. 

But this I thought I'd play it once to see what it was like and what all the fuss was about, but then I got hooked, and all through my biology lesson I was like I want to play this game. I need to play this game. Then I downloaded it and played it pretty much for two hours straight. 

Ok I'm going to stop blogging now cause the game is just staring at me. Elli no be strong. But...But...it wants to be played. No. But. BUT. Elli...Fine. I wont play it. (You all know I'm going to go play it)

See you in the 'morrow! 

If I haven't been lost to the world of 2048.

I Don't Do Much

I haven't spoken about this day in so long. But today was not much happens Wednesday, how ever some stuff happened cause I am now going to blog about said stuff, and yeah. But in terms of school lessons I don't really do much. Just four hours of private study and double media. Lets find out what happened then shall we?

So I got to school at the usual time, and sat in the common room with Maddy as she played an addictive game. Then more people showed up and stuff happened then off to Private Study with Claire and Lish. I did some work failing to answer questions for a past paper for psychololololology (which I practically did all day). Also during P/S Claire and I hid Lish's stuff and wrote "I love Bananas" on her work she didn't notice for quite a while. 

Then was breakytime and as per usual I cannot remember anything. So let's just head back to private study, but this time with Lish and Jassie. and Paul were being really annoying and we just threatened them and stuff and I got some more work done. And that was pretty much it. So now it is lunchtime and I saw with people and Giancarlo hid Tom's glasses  and Jessie became headless and just a couple of other weird things.

After this I had double media where we did work on the exam stuff and then organised coursework. On the board we saw the letters WOTD and Jessie and I wondered what this would stand for and then I said "Well Otis Took Dick" so now this is my saying. Also Jessie started this weird silent laugh and that is now her new laugh. It was a pretty funny lesson. 

Home, sweet, home and really random group chat conversations which I might discuss with you tomorrow. Oh you lucky bunch. But you are going to have to wait for that. See you in the 'morrow!

Some Strange Conversations...

Hey guys. Guess what? I'm going to blog about my day! YAY! Well it's not that yay, it wasn't complete quality entertainment and I don't remember much, but it'll do. 

So today I went to SixyForm and only had double psychology. Which is bliss. My mum gave me a lift and I arrived at break, and was greeted by everyone, because they missed me (as I was ill yesterday) I felt so loved. Then the bell went and it was off to psychology where I felt smart, ate a freddo, and had some fun conversations with Claire and Maddy.

After this was Lunch and I sat with my friends as usual. At the end of mentor I didn't want to leave cause I wanted to spend more time with everyone, but Claire was all :'( and guilt tripping me. She left and I stayed but I felt superbad. However, staying resulted in me being part of a very interesting conversation. I can't remember exact details but I think it started with Emily touching my leg then I said that apparently that is 1/8 of an orgasm and we started talking about that then somehow we got into a conversation about masturbation  and Connor was just shocked beyond belief. 

Then I went home some point after more conversation, and met Claire and Lish on my way to the bus stop. I went and met Lish's Bunneh and it is so completely adorable! Then Claire and I left and got on the bus and had sexy fun times. I kid we just had some weird conversations. Then I got home and looked at this list of weird phobias. There's one for being afraid of things to your right? People. My favourites where these: 
Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia- Fear of long words, because if you fear it you can't say the name of the phobia.
Medomalacuphobia- Fear of losing an erection, because it's funny to think people fear that.

OK that's pretty much all I have to say. I need to go sleep, it's been a confusing last couple of hours. I think my brain has just had enough. See you in the 'morrow!

Uneeded Stress

Right now, at this point in time, I seriously think I am done with School. My mind just can't focus, and there is something more important I just keep worrying about. 6th Form just feels like an unnecessary hassle. If I had a job right now I'm pretty sure I would just quit. Without a seconds thought. 

I don't understand why we are put under so much pressure at this age. It can't be healthy? Can it? I mean some people can get so stressed out they just "rage quit" so most of their life is wasted. It's unfair. I know why we are doing this, because of Jobs and shit like that but they build it up too much. Like saying if you fail your life is pretty much meaningless. Which is like "Gee Thanks World!". Sometimes teenagers have enough to worry about, without exams. Like family issues, or friends stuff, or just bitchy people making your life a living hell. 

It's just a bit like, all of my memories are mainly me at school. School is the only life I know. And what if something happens and I die tomorrow. I don't want to look back and think it was all just misery at school. I want to get out and just do something else. Maybe go traveling or just do something different everyday. Instead of falling into the same routine, of waking up early, and being all miserable about mornings. Going to school talking to friends lazily sitting in lessons listening to teachers drone on about work and exams then more talk to friends then more drone then getting home to freak outs and trying to distract yourself then more freak outs and then sleeping and knowing it's all just going to happen again tomorrow. All until the blissful weekend which you can never enjoy anymore cause you need to revise so you revise and do homework and panic and sleep. I just don't want that to be my life anymore. 

I know if I get a job it is essentially going to be the same with going to work and coming homing, but I think less panic and stress will be involved than this. But I just need a long break. From school. To do my own thing. Cause right now I need a less stressful distraction from something which scares me so much I can't even sleep. And right now school stuff is just adding to it and I don't need that. Everyone's all but it's worth it in the end cause you can get a better future so stay focused and work hard and it will be fine. But I just can't, my mind can't stay focused, because of stupid fucking things I can't change, and nothing will be made clear until next year. Sometimes even thinking about it makes me physically sick, but there's nothing I nor anyone can do. So how can I focus on exams? In comparison they mean nothing to me, and I don't think anyone truly understands that. 

Sorry I'm rambling. But it's 3:55am and I can't sleep because of this, and there's no-one else I can talk to at this time. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know where to go, or how to feel. I need to sleep cause I've got school but I just can't. 

Wow if you read through that you must be super bored. Or just a stalker. Either way, thanks for listening I guess. Well reading. Lets see if I can get at least some sleep. See you in the 'morrow!

Drastic Mood Changes

As I am a woman, I wouldn't say this is highly unlikely. But I have really strange mood swings. Like I go from being really happy to either really sad, angry or just meh really easily, and it is really hard to come back from that sometimes. 

For example today. I was all ok having a little joke in group chat then all of a sudden I was sad. Like really sad, and I didn't like it. And it took me a while to get over it. Mainly I just indulged myself in a book. Which I guess helped because I mainly started thinking about the characters and the fictional world. But then there was this whole underlying thought related to the book which kind of got me down. But yeah. 

The same thing happen with anger. Sometimes someone can just say one innocent thing but I get pissed off, then it just increases to a high rage. However sometimes I feel if I don't reach this level of high rage I will be ragey more often. Which is why sometimes I overload myself with sadness just so I wont be sad again for a while, unless something new happens.

Depressiveness is just so much fun. Like this whole school thing. It's all just nope. But when I'm at school I'm different and happy cause I am surrounded by friends, then as soon as I get home I'm all ARG again. 

Ok I'm getting sleepy so cannot be bothered to continue. Mainly because my computer is being super UGH right now because some of the keys don't work properly mainly the spacebar so I either have to angrily hit it which is just too much effort or go back and correct mistakes which is more effort so it is all like please make it stop!

So yeah, See you in the 'morrow!

Tired Talk

Hey, I'm too tired to blog, but if I don't I wont be able to sleep. UGH. The life of a blogger. So what to do what to do... Well after reading a couple of friends blogs, I found they were all talking about the return to 6th form. So I'll just steal that from them.

Basically the pointless three day return was more of a social occasion to me more than anything else. On the first day there was no proper talk about impending exams so I kind of forgot about it and just spent time with my friends, and in the case of most of them I had not seen them in ages. And there wasn't really that much pressure. But I think that's because I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore. 

However, being there with everyone made me realise if I wasn't there next year, I am probably going to miss out on a lot of stuff, and lose that time I get to spend with the ragtag group of awesomeness. Though I seriously feel I am not going to get into A2. I'm just not motivated enough, and I can't find that motivation. It's all more, we'll see what happens. But I am probably not going to like what happens. 

Days like today help me forget I even have school to worry about, cause my mind is just on my social life. Which is great because I am so much happier, but I guess the outcome won't be so great. 

Ok I think that is enough to satisfy you for a while. If not deal with it cause I am too sleepy to write anymore. *YAWN* Did anyone yawn whilst reading the word yawn? I know you did, don't lie to me. Anywho...I shall see you in the 'morrow! 

You Get a Tag and You Like It!

What is this? You promised us normality yesterday, and now you are doing another fucking tag?! I know, I know, I'm sorry. But in my defence, there is like 50 minutes left in the day, I can't remember anything that really happened today, and I have to post cause if not I feel really down. SO YOU GET A TAG AND YOU LIKE IT! (Found this on Tumblr)

1) First kiss? (IF you haven't had it, who do you want to kiss) ha umm... Not saying. But it was a girl. So yeah...
2) Funniest joke you know? Probably the one I heard the other day from Giancarlo: What do you call a cow with no legs? Ground Beef. What do you call a cow with three legs? Lean Beef. What do you call a cow with two legs? Your Mum. (I don't think your mum is a cow by the way) 
3) Jeans, shorts, skirts, or dresses? Most definitely jeans. They are so comfy. 
4) Have you found Jesus? Nope, and if it's like Where's Wally probably never will. I'm so bad at that book game thing. 
5) Customized ringtone or generic? Customized. So when people ring Yoda speaks to me, and when I get a text it screams UNACCEPTABLE!
6) Favorite B-rated movie? What's a B-rated movie? *Googles this shit* Ok google didn't really help, cause it turns out I don't really watch those kinds of movies, so I'm going to say The Evil Dead (cause that's what google tells me)
7) Favorite superhero? Hmmm...Well I'm married to Superman, but I really like Spiderman. CONFLICTED.
8) Favorite Villain? No Brainer, Moriarty!
9) Favorite actor/actress? Hmm...Actor:  probably Craig Roberts, Actress: Helena Bonham Carter
10) What kind of phone do you have? Samsung Galaxy Ace. And it's smashed, but still works!
11) Random fact about yourself. Sometimes when I think, I think in a welsh accent. 

Hope you liked that really super fun tag. Don't expect anything amazing tomorrow, probably just going to be more random bullshit. But I guess that's the charm of my blogs. 

See you in the 'morrow!

Yay More Tags!

Hello, so today I went to Sixy form and did some work and had some laughs and fell on the floor, but I can't remember enough specifically so today you are going to get a tag. Super sarcastic yay! It may get a bit confusing because I answered some questions on different days but yeah figure it out for yourselves. Enjoy! 
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? I don't like anyone at the minute. 

02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you? my foot :/
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? It was about the funeral I attended today. I was all worried and such.
04: what are you listening to? Youtube videos.
05: what’s something you're not looking forward to? Failing the exams.
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? Most probably at home, sleeping.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? Yes.
08: sex on the first date? No, however if you are really desperate for some and you feel you like if the relationship might not progress you might as well get something out of it.
09: kiss on the first date? If it is going well.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes :/
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? Kind of. I really love some things, but I want other things to change.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? I'm going to address everyone as my chosen someone. No matter what anybody tells you, or how you feel, you are beautiful, and you are loved :)

13: what are three things you did today? Ate, cried and cuddled.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? I'd rather sleep at theirs.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? Bubblegum
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? I honestly have no idea if we are friends. I'd say we are acquaintances. Other than Scott the rest are just nope.
17: what is on your wrists right now? An elastic band.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn't stand a chance with? Yeah, don't we all. 
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? No.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? Yeah I guess, it kind of sucks.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? I suppose I have. 
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? Nope.
23: how have you felt today? I just don't know anymore
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? Not sure, whatever I want at the time. Right now I need new shoes. 
25: what is wrong with you right now? So many things, can't explain. Neither have the time or the effort.
26: is there anyone you're really disappointed in? There's someone I'm a little disappointed in, not going to say who.
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? I don't really like either.
28: why aren't you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? Cause he turned into a bit of a dick.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? 11, twas talking to people on the faceybook.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Earlier today. Some weirdness. As usual.
31: what were you doing an hour ago? Trying to nap.
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? Paige's party!
33: are you wearing jeans right now? Yes.
34: are you a patient person? Depends what I have to wait for, but mostly I don't think I am.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? yes definitely. But can they is the question. 
36: favourite colour? BLUE!
37: did you have a dream last night? Yeah, really freaked me out.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? Jeans. Which if you read the answer to 33 you should have guessed. 
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? Mum 
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? My friends.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? Maybe, cause if I didn't like them back I'd feel really bad, but I'd like them to think they can trust me with this information. 
42: do you like meeting new people? Ah I guess, I mean if they seem nice and a little bit odd I am more than welcome to the idea. 
43: are you afraid of falling in love? Not really.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? Unfortunately. 
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Once or twice. By the way this sounds like you are coming on to me...
46: have you ever felt like you weren't good enough? That is my thought process like 93% of the time.

So that is that my merry little chums. More 6th Form tomorrow...yay. So you should get a more normal post. Well I say normal, as normal as it gets when it comes to me. Anywho....See you in the 'morrow!

Overall Success I Guess...

Well I guess that's it. No more holidays until my first exam. Ugh. Someone just take me away from all this. But I must admit my first day back at school in a few weeks wasn't so bad. I seemed to get into the habit quite easily and I got a good amount of work done. So overall success I guess. Ha that rhymed. 

So today for some reason I woke up at six. SIX! But I guess this gave me enough time to get ready and even have some breakfast, which I rarely do cause I either never have the time or just cannot be bothered. I had some crumpets yum! Then headed to 6th where there were some curtains and everyone complained about them, then Mads told me she might leave :'( After this people were confused that Tyler was not wearing a suit (he always wears a suit).

Following this was double private study where I got a lot of work done. Then Maddy, Claire, Emily and I were talking about Birthdays. And then after this I went back to private study where Jamie started going on about Birthdays.

During lunch where we mainly sat around in the emptyish common room eating this oreo icecream thing, and saying bad jokes and pick-up lines. This was followed by double media where he didn't collect the work in which I completed during the first double private study >.< But the lesson was fun cause we were defining characters in Dracula using Propp's theory and I said that the sun was the helper because it killed Dracula. It was pretty funny. 

Then I had some random conversations with strangers on the late bus, and then got home

Anywho, now I am back to school, more work shall begin. HA maybe. But I'll definitely try. See you in the 'morrow!

A Crying Domino Effect

I was not looking forward to today, not at all. I would have much rather been where I had originally planned to go which was bowling with my friends to celebrate Siobhan's Birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIOBHAN! But sadly that could not happen, because I had to go to a funeral. 

Funerals just suck, but I guess it's closure. Cause now you know the person is truly at peace and other things like that. But I was still scared about it. I couldn't sleep and I was just worried I was going to have some kind of breakdown in front of people. Also I had to light a candle and I kept thinking I was going to muck up and I really didn't want to because it was so important. So yeah. I think I was ok, well as ok you can be at a funeral. When I got there I was strong and when I saw the coffin I was still all "you'll be fine" but when I got inside it was just ugh.

It kind of made everything so real. Because up until now I never really admitted to myself that my granddad had passed away not 2 weeks before. It's just strange, and I don't really like talking about it. Cause I feel like mentioning it means I'm just looking for sympathy or something, when I'm not, and I don't particularly like people knowing my business. But yeah I guess I need to talk about it a little, cause bottling up my feelings isn't good.

So basically inside the little place I was all yeah it'll be ok. But then next to me Hal started crying, so I instantly started crying cause I hated seeing her upset, and apparently she was crying because dad was upset, and because we were crying my mum cried. So it was like a crying domino effect. It wasn't good. But after this we were all better. Cause like I said Closure. 

After this thing, we had a gathering where I spoke to some people I have never met before. Then the family and I went to the pub. 

But in conclusion Funerals suck, but without them you wouldn't be able to really move past the death of a loved one. Hmm...Anywho sorry about a kind of a down blog, but yeah...School tomorrow. GREAT! (Said super sarcastically) Ugh. See you in the 'morrow!

Easter!!!

Ok before we begin I am going to simply remind those of why we celebrate easter, it's all cause Jesus was murdered on a cross (hence hot cross buns) and came back to life leaving an empty tomb (hence easter eggs), Just remember that kids. So this post is going to be about how I celebrated Easter.

I went to an infamous Eddie party, however I feel there have been better ones. This was more just chilling at someone else's house with a group of friends with small amounts of alcohol. So I got there about 5:30, and Eddie, Giancarlo and Jessie were already there. Once there we went on the trampoline and we bounced and did this weird thing that made me laugh uncontrollably. Then we threw sticky leaves at Giancarlo's crotch and he did a very sexy dance for us. 

After this we went inside and painted eggs. I named mine Eggsaviour simply for the pun. Painted him blue and gave him one really big googly eye and one really small one. He was so special. But then after a while we gave up painting eggs and decided to paint my arm instead. It was multi-coloured and sparkly, and even had it's own set of googly eyes. I was a work of art.

Next we ate a ton of delicious Jelly shots, and played on GTAV where we all killed ourselves in various ways. Giancarlo shot a grenade at a policeman and blew himself up in the process. Momo and grenades always seems to end in a suicide mission. Then Tom arrived and we played a racing game and it took Jessie like 15 minutes to make one lap of the map out of 99. This was going to be a long race. Mainly because she drove backwards and then decided to drive straight into Eddie as he came round for lap wto. It was pretty entertaining.

Some point during this I turned ultimate Hipster and we took some selfies, and Jessie got very obsessed with this 1Up toy and kept making it make the noise, and started making sex jokes around it. From here though I felt a bit down. Mainly cause I overheard a conversation between Eddie, Tom and Jessie, which they probably thought I couldn't hear. I hate it when that happens. I hate it when people talk about me behind my back. So I was really down and went and laid on the floor on the other side of the room.

Here the group kind of split, Momes and I were sat at one end watching Monty Python on TV which was really weird, and the others were playing games. Then were some random conversations and some watching In The Flesh then sleepy times. Where apparently I spasmed a lot, which I hate. Ugh. Does anyone else spasm while they sleep? 

So that was pretty much it. A fun easter. This was on Saturday by the way, so sorry again about not blogging but this was why. I still can't get over the fact I missed a day :/ Anywho I shall leave you to whatever you are going to do. See you in the 'morrow!