Snapchat.

Hi there. Today we are going to have a pointless little post just to fill
the space until something interesting happens in my life. So the topic is Snapchat. More specifically Snapchat filters. Which have been around for God knows how long, but I have only had access to them for the past 4 months. Luckily they still get used. This reason being because my old phone never updated enough to get them to work, so when I got my new phone it was basically for this reason, and then when at first it didn't work and my sister laughed in my face. However, as you can tell by the pictures and the fact there is actually a post means that it did!






Now a theme I enjoy about the snaps are how they do try and change what ones you can use daily, because I
admit I'd get pretty bored if it was the same thing all the time. Which is why I do have a hate for the over used ones such as the dog filter. Sorry I just can't. And then some are just slight variations of the same one, like with all the bloody types of flower crown. Although I do admit I look good in the flower crown. Which is the main reason I like the filters because it makes me look 10x better on a good day, imagine the possibilities on a bad one!

I don't really know what else to say
about Snapchat. I enjoy the story feature and getting random images or videos from someone. And I do enjoy how it cannot be permanently viewed unless you take a screenshot. Not that I send anything crude enough for me to want it erased. I mainly just send selfies to Matt in the latest filter update and then move on with my day. Occasionally updating my story if I can come up with a fun enough tag line, or there is actually something going on in my life.









So as there isn't really that
much in depth to talk about I thought the best filler would be sharing some of the saved pictures I have of me in my more favoured filters. Enjoy!

See you when I see you!

99 Things That Bring Me Joy.

The other week I posted about a book I purchased in which you fill in most of it based on prompts. If you want to see that click this link. In this post I do mention the book I am going to talk about now. Even though I do not think I named it correctly. But there are still 99 things in it so I believe I am close enough. Anywho...

99 Things That Bring Me Joy is basically a little memory book that prompts you to write about weird little things that bring you joy. So I liked it because it encourages the more positive and happy memories we should want to look back on. Therefore I purchased a pretty pen to match the theme of the book and began filling in answers here and there. Which again I thought would be nice to share.

The main thing I do love about this book is just how cute it is all set out. Like someone has taken care into the design and the style and I like it a lot. But yeah things like this really appeal to me and I may be a little bit obsessed by them. Is that a problem though? I guess we'll never know. See you when I see you!

The Collector.

I become obsessed with things very easily. If I think it is interesting or cute I just want to indulge myself in it and have as much of it as I physically can. Which is why I have growing collections of pointless things. Some are slowly coming to a stop, but the amount I do get to is worrying. When I was younger this collection was Buddhas. Don't ask me why because I honestly could not tell you. But I had more than a ten year old girl should have. I still have some of them now because I find it weird to part with them, but couldn't be bothered to take a picture. Mainly I think because they are not displayed on my shelves of awesomeness.

The following collections are however. Firstly being Blott Rubbers. And if you have been with my blog since the beginning you would have witnessed this obsession progress. I have calmed down now though. Mainly because the shop has closed... But still be proud!

Next we have another cute item. Tsum Tsums. Originally I was only going to have Mickey, then the disney classics, then just one from each movie I liked. Then I snowballed a little out of reasoning. But in my defense a lot of them were gifts...

Finally the one that has gone a bit out of control to the point I don't really know what to do with them. Funko Pop Vinyl Figures. And I was interested in these before they were cool (Hipster before Hipsters or whatever) But yeah I first had a small collection then I'd say mainly recently I have gone a little bit mad. THEY ARE SO AWESOME THOUGH. 

As you can see on the shelves there are some snails and my little pony things. These are small collections that have other features somewhere in my room, but have not reached the point of really mentioning.

Hopefully I will stop being a weird collector/hoarder as some might start calling it, because they are all things I do not need in my life. I mean they are but... At least I have some financial stability to fund my weird obsessions. Hope you enjoyed this and I'll see you when I see you!

Adulting.

As I like to constantly remind myself (and anyone who will listen) this year I am going to turn 20. 20! I will finally move on into adulthood which I am ready but, so not ready for. Obviously therefore, I am going to write a blog post about this. Here goes.

One thing I consider to be an adult like thing, is Travelling. Because even though you can travel as a child, the organisation of it goes to the adults. And recently my group of friends were informed of  a change. Grimshaw is leaving to go to Australia for 5 months. I applaud that bravery, because I do not think I'd be ready for that. I haven't ever been out of England letting alone living in a country for over a 1/3 of a year. I wouldn't know anyone and I wouldn't have my little comforts. But I guess the fun is in the adventure.

Similarly, there is planning holidays. I am always scared of booking holidays because I would be worried I have gotten something wrong and thus ruining the entire trip. But I love to plan. It's a weird cycle. A while ago Lish mentioned the group going to centre parks for a little holiday and I am very excited if this were to actually happen.

A big adult thing that I have been trying to do for a while now, is moving out. And I am getting further along with this process by viewing more flats. It is a big scary step and I'm not entirely sure of the entire process that goes with it. So far I just look around thinking, convenient location, nice kitchen, decent sized bedroom and I forget about the other side of things. Which is why it is nice I always have help and a second opinion when I go to see these places. I just find it difficult trying to organise these things around work because lettings agents don't open until I am already at work and then they close before I finish and then when I finally get through to somewhere the flat has either gone or they are fully booked. It's very annoying.

At work I feel I am becoming more of an adult because I am getting more responsibility. Now having my own key children! Which is great but I am worried I am going to let my manager down, because she has such high hopes of what I can accomplish and sometimes I look at the planning like I have no idea what to do. But I guess everyone who works there had that at some point. I hope. And since there has been a few changes within the room I am in I've all of a sudden become like second in charge and I had to write the agenda for our room meeting and am expected to take control, which is weird because I am like one of the youngest employees.

So slowly and surely I am becoming an adult. But I don't really want to. I enjoy being silly and childish. And I like the comfort of knowing others can help me with things because I'm only little. Well I guess I will still be little. Stupid Vertical Challengedness. I also don't think I am emotionally stable enough to be an adult. But it is something we all have to do. And if I want to live the way I do I need to do it. Wish me luck. See you when I see you!

642 Tiny Things To Write About.

So a while ago, I was with my friends in the city. And the two of them being bookaholics we ended up in what I like to call Claire’s second home. Waterstones. Now I was intrigued by a particular section in the shop which were these brand of books that are about creativity. So they all provide ideas and you fill in the rest. Basically they charge you lots of money to do most of the work yourself.

I love things like this, because I love looking back at the past. So
mainly I wanted to have something to look back on and remember all the times that are mentioned. I went for the book “642 tiny things to write about” Because there was a bigger version that could have been purchased. It’s a pretty good book so far. Like some things they encourage you to write about are personal, and then others are completely bizarre. Which is nice. But I think I would have preferred one which was fully about myself, because then it would be easier to write about. Because I’m not really that creative. Coming up with my own ideas really panics me because I don’t like doing things wrong. So I would have preferred the other book I saw which was “99 things I love” which basically list the things you love. Claire convinced me that the one I got was more for your money so I was sold on that premise.

As it was going to be a special project I got myself a special pen to write all my thoughts in and got cracking. Asking my friends to choose a topic they found interesting and I started filling it in. And slowly I have been adding more and more. I’m not really sure I can complete it any time soon because there is so much, and some things are about recalling things about your first car, and I haven’t even owned that yet. There are ones I have also started but not yet finished because I am creatively inept in some instances. But I thought it would be interesting to share some of the first ideas with you guys.

As much as I do live this book I am finding it a challenge. Because I am probably focusing too hard on trying to be funny more than creative or honest. But if that's the way I wish to write in it I guess that is my prerogative. Wish me luck in completing it. See you when I see you!

The Party Don't Start 'til I Walk In.

A beautiful quote from the magnificent Paige on my first venture out into the clubbing experience. And honestly Paige has never shown me her party side to this extent and I was nervous about that. And I did spend about an hour before I left about how I really didnt want to go. Because I've never been out before and had no idea what it would be like and that kind of thing panics me. But I'm so glad I went because we had so much fun.

So I started off meeting Paige and Scott at Revs  where we hoped our friend Connor could serve us. But unfortunately he was in the kitchen. Scott bought us some shots. I had the "Love Candy" and "Mango and Pineapple" which were nice but the latter had a weird after taste. Then, after a bit of chat, we separated so Paige, her sister and I could go to the Harry Potter night at the Cabana Club. Basically there was more staff than customers and it felt like there was nothing to do with HP. All I really remember is Paige getting really excited about a woman handing out lollipops in the bathroom.

So we met Scott at waterfront after a very cold wait in the queue. And again Scott got us drinks. And I at first felt very awkward dancing, because I thought people would judge the way I danced. As well as this I didn't really know the first few songs that were playing. But then you hear that one song and I got very into it. Belting out Mr Brightside and I believe in a thing called love were some great moments. And this was until 3 am. And considering I left home at 7am to go to work I was very surprised I was that active for so long.

I'm still not completely confident in the night out experience. There was awkwardness when you didn't know the songs. And people trying to push into you. Like there was a couple who pushed into me because they were too into grinding each other. And I mean whatever floats your boat, but I don't want to be subjected to that. Also the toilets were a fucking nightmare. For girls anyway. Scott was in and out while Paige and I were still queuing. It was funny though when this bitch of a girl barged her way through not even apologising because her friend was about to puke and karma hit her when her friend starting puking on her face.

There were some good moments though when we thought we saw Connor but it turned out to be someone called Stan. But this guy looked so much like him. Dressed like him and even moved like him. So Connor if you're reading. I think you have a twin. And there was a moment when a girl approached me asking if I was okay (I was standing on my own for a minute so for awkward) and she had genuine concern for me then said I liked very nice. It restored my faith in humanity.

In conclusion I'd like to go out again. Because it was really fun. But maybe wear more sensible footwear because my feet really started hurting. Then when I woke up film my four hours of sleep, my legs were in so much pain. Like my thighs just hurt. But I feel that was due to the time I spent dancing linked to how much time I usually spend exercising.  Which is none. But maybe this could be my regular exercise ;) See you when I see you!

Getting a Tattoo.

Yes the title gives away the surprise but... Surprise! I got a tattoo. And it was an experience. So obviously I am going to blog about it.

For a while now I have spoken about getting a tattoo,I always said about getting something meaningful to show support for something I care about. Then my sister got one of fang from Mona that vampire and I thought fuck it. I love cats I love Sailor Moon. So here's my tattoo. In my mind it is supposed to be more of a representation of Luna bit if you are fans of the animal you would know own that it looks more like Artimus because he was white and Luna was a black cat. But either are cute so I don't really care.

If you have known me for a while you would know I have a thing for temporary tattoos and I would always place them on my left wrist, which is why I have opted to place the real tattoo there. Because I just feel my wrists are weird looking so I need something pretty to distract away from it. And now instead of spending lots of money on fake ones that rub off as soon as you have a show I'd spend lots of money that if you take a hot shower too soon after getting it could actually rub off.

  

Part of me does regret getting it a little bit. Because it is not completely what I imagined it being and I am to socially awkward to keep saying how I wanting it asking in a certain way and just assumed they knew more about what they were doing and went along with it. Which you really shouldn't do. But mine is growing on me and I'm glad I proved to myself I am actually capable of doing something like this.

The experience wasn't anything like I thought it would be. You'd look at the design going it won't take that long all they do is print off a stencil and trace it. But no it took half an hour! The guy who did it was like right I'm finished...with the outline. And I was looking at the clock thinking. Someone come save me. Because it wasn't that it was a huge pain that was unbearable. It was just really irritating and constant. Even when he paused the pain was still there. Heck even when it was over. And yeah I knew it would hurt but nothing really prepares you for that. I dealt with it by singing in my head, and the more it hurt the louder I sang.
 

Then when it was all over my arm got wrapped in clingfilm and I was relayed a bunch of instructions on how to care for it I didn't know getting a tattoo required so much work. Plus the guy who was telling me this spoke so quickly I didn't get half of what he said and felt too awkward to ask again. So I'm in a state of panic it's going to get infected or ruined in some way and therefore wasting all the money and time and pain.

I probably wouldn't relive that experience again and it hasn't helped with my fear of needles ad I would have liked it too. But like I said before. I'm glad I did it. Because I'm never really impulsive. Plus it gave me something to blog about! See you when I see you!

Coping Mechanism.

When you are as emotional as I can be, you need to find different ways to try and deal with that without making it as awkward for those around you. Even though 90% of the time I do fail at this.

As a child I used to play with dolls, and as much as I hate to admit it, I continued playing with them for much longer than what is considered socially acceptable. But that was my coping mechanism. I indulged myself in the pretend world of the dolls to take my mind of the stressful things in my life. Lots of time I would use them to have an uncomfortable conversation with someone I thought would make the situation worse if I actually have it, so that way I could process and move on. Nowadays I still have the pretend conversation, just don't act them out.

Another method I use is what I am talking to you now on. I have mentioned many times I see this blog as my therapy space, because to me I don't imagine many people read this. Or at least read it and care. So it provides me with the freedom to express my feelings without any judgement. Yeah I could just write it all down and not publicly share it, but it's the sharing that helps. As my manager said to me the other day "a problem shared is a problem halved". Some posts I do feel a bit weird about sharing, like the ones about the genetic disorder because I feel they can be interpreted as a cry for attention. But none of this is. I blog for two reasons: To have something to read back and remember the nice times, To have an escape where I can cope. Because if I don't tend to express my feelings to anyone I do tend to explode. I mean I do that anyway. And I really regret when I do that because I say things I don't really mean. If you have ever been on the receiving end of that I am sorry.

Other than this my main coping mechanism is talking to people who make me happy, such as my friends. Even if it is just talking about nonsense. Or I do just find various distractions, such as Youtube or reading, to pretend the problem doesn't even exist. Because if I have no reminder of what brings me down it won't bring me down.

But everyone has different ways to cope with different situations. And you may not think it is the responsible way to deal with things, but if it helps us personally, why should it matter? Unless you think it is actually more damaging just accept that is the way it is going to be. I know this is a bit of a weird post but it's my way of coping ;) See you when I see you!

A Bit Of A Workaholic.

So I mentioned in my reboot blog post. (If you haven’t read that yet I’d go check it out, but I’ll just recap anyway if you are too lazy). That I have actually made a new friendship group. Not one to replace my already existing bunch, but one to just have alongside to keep things interesting, and make my work life a little more enjoyable.

Don’t get me wrong I really enjoy my job some days. It’s my dream job working with children. But like every job there are certain people, certain little things that just get to you. Like the hours you work, or the way you get spoken to. So I’ve become part of like a little in work club. However slowly those involved are leaving because they want to be somewhere different. And there are days I feel like that. But being able to have a little rant to them is helping me get through the next year and a half I have to stay there to complete my course. It’s so dependent on how I am treated in that time of if I will continue.

But back to the group. It all started when the first person left. I felt honoured she actually invited me along, because even though I had been there a year I had never really mingled with them outside of work. I’m glad she did, for I had such a good time. Now we just kind of do regular meet ups to catch up. I don’t really talk to them much about the situations going on in my own friendship groups, like I don’t really talk to my friendship group about them. I like to keep it a bit separate. Not that I’m cheating or anything, I just feel comfort knowing I always have someone to go to for the different things I need.

It’s almost like I am two different people, living two lives. My work and my home. I don’t really have a preference. I was about to say I am having the best of both worlds and quote some more Hannah Montana and became slightly disgusted with myself.

Moving on.

The only downside to the whole thing is that there are some people at work who don’t take to well to being left out. Which I kind of get because I do hate being left out of group situations. But they do go about making people feel uncomfortable. Which is the only reason they weren’t really invited in the first place. Like if I’m not invited I just have imaginary conversations in my head and get over it. If not it’s just petty.

But some people’s attitudes are one of the main reasons I don’t really like being at work. I just have to power through I guess. It’s difficult though when you feel like your whole life is just overpowered by this thing. And that’s not what I want. I’ve always been one of those believers in family before a career. Because as long as you have people to go home to that will cheer you up, I believe I can get through any difficult days at work.

If not just find things to distract you. Like reading my blog. Because I mainly write it to distract myself from the more suckish parts of life. See you when I see you!

A Difficult Situation.

One of the things I love in life is sarcasm. I don’t know what it is about the way my brain is wired but when someone says something. Anything. I just want to say something sarcastic to lighten the mood a bit. Some people can refer to this as banter. Some people can refer to this as bitchiness. But if you know me well enough you know what I’m like. You know I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings. I just like to add the sass.

So here comes the difficult bit. Accurately portraying this though the use of social media. I mean okay I know sometimes when I say something it can come across as bitchy and towards certain people, yes I may mean every ounce of bitchiness there is. But that person isn’t my friend, and he knows that. To everyone else it’s just how I joke with them. Which is why they never flag it up as a bitchy comment. Why am I talking about this you may wonder? Well a certain someone I feel is trying to put me down, and turn everyone against me. He says I’m bitchy and he just tries to call me out on it because no-one else does. Well maybe no-one else does because they see it’s a joke, because they actually understand what I’m like.

It’s so frustrating having this person in your life. Especially after they made it perfectly clear they don’t want to even be part of your life. The worst bit is a lot of my friends are just allowing it to happen. So far one of them (that I officially know about) has spoken to him about it, which is how I know the whole calling me out for bitchiness thing. But slowly one by one more people are starting to tell me they are tired of the way he is acting. Will they say that to him. I don’t think so.

Reason number one being. He has formed an alliance with a fellow group member. As in they are together in a relationship. So people don’t want to single him out in fear of losing her. Which I don’t blame them for because in fairness I didn’t want to do that. Because she was a good friend to me. However, out of nowhere (and if someone actually does understand where this somewhere actually is, please let me know) She’s just turned on me. Like once she didn’t let it go about taking a pill properly, I assume just to belittle me. And another time she insists I’m childish after I apologise for what it is I have said.

Once again I turn to the others worried it’s just me who believes this. But they are starting to see it too. She’s become a lot bitchier (not just my words). I feel like both of them try to pick holes at you. Maybe it’s because they aren’t happy enough in their own lives. But I can’t judge that. I’m starting to feel that when I’m not in the chat they then try to go after Claire. Which is 100% not on.

What can you do though? Because no matter what I think I can do it will just cause a shit storm for the group. It’s difficult. So far I feel the best way to deal with it is to become less involved in the group. But how is that fair on me? I didn’t ask for any of this. I didn’t ask for him to break up with me. I didn’t ask for him to start dating her and them to have some kind of vendetta. So why should I be the one forced to be exiled? Obviously I am not going to allow myself to be fully excluded. But I feel for now the best way is to have a little space. Focus on some of the other things I like doing to distract me. Like writing this blog, watching YouTube, spending time with my parents. Doing my coursework. Even though I don’t necessarily like doing that, it’s beneficial to my job so I’m killing two birds with one stone really. Not that I condone killing animals.

Could you guys offer any advice? Not that anyone really reads this and provides any response. It’s just a past time. I’ll keep you updated. See you when I see you!

Promises To Break.

Well it's that beloved time of year again. The time to convince yourself you are capable of change, and can achieve the list of things you want to do to better yourself. When let's face it, that will never happen. Especially with me.

Now to begin I like to look back at how well I achieved my last set of resolutions, because shits and giggles. So here goes the failure.
First we had the classic. Losing weight. And as I never actually weigh myself this is an entire mystery. But I do feel like I am better. I'm not where I expected to be.
Next there was considering driving lessons. I have indeed considered them. Have I made any actual progress? Fuck off.
Then we have saving money. Which I am very good at in all honesty. I mean apart from my recent spendage on people's Christmas presents but we shall not discuss that. There has been a lot more going on for finding a place to live. And At this moment in time I haven't found a place, but Me and Lish are hopefully going to live together, and I've been putting in enquiries for places. Hoping to schedule a viewing. But organising that is difficult.
I did actually pass my level 2 apprenticeship, now working on Level 3. Woop. Woop.
A discovery was made with my next resolution when I look back at the year. I was an angry person, because I was with someone who didn't make me happy. So I have become less angry, I mean don't get me wrong I can still get so mad I cry, and people irritate the hell out of me. But it's not as often and I would say I am definitely more happy than I am angry than I was last year.

Now being more social. I feel I was rather adequately social, and I have had some amazing times with my friends and family.
Finally there was blogging more. Let's just all laugh that one off shall we? Ha ha ha HAHAHA. Sorry.

So that is 7 failures. Should we have 7 more? Can I even think of 7? Let's find out. 

1: Move out. I feel like if I do not move out by my 20th birthday I am not living my life properly I'm not saying if you're 20 and living with your parent's you are not living your life properly. But it is just not what I imagined for my life, and not where I want to be. 

2. Learn to drive. I'm not saying I want to have passed by 2018. But I would like to have actually started some lessons. 

3. Exercise more. Aka. Lose weight. Well I just want to have a different body shape. Like get rid of the chub. The best way I feel to do this is actually exercising. Toning my body or whatever. So I have a plan!. Small challenges that increase daily, which means I'd get better at doing different exercises and they would actually make a difference. 

4. Stop letting people who mean nothing to me get to me. I know that is a contradiction because if they get to me they evidently mean something in some form. But I don't want them to have this negative affect, and I need to get better and cutting them out of my life. 

5. Be more organised with coursework. I seriously need to stop stressing myself out the day before all my coursework is due. Enough said. 

6. Bringing the debate back to whether or not to get tested for Huntington's disease. Not to sure about this one though. 

7. Keep up with the consistent blogging. Because I do really enjoy blogging and it keeps me sane!

So here we go 2017. Please be a good year. I mean we've had a good start, let's keep it up. Pray that I can complete these tasks. I know some are a definite no. But that's why you need to stick around, see if the fantasy can become reality. See you when I see you!

And That Was 2016.

So everyone was coming to the end of 2016 saying. IT'S ALL SHIT, PLEASE LET IT END ALREADY. And yeah in a way I agree with it, there were some shit bits. Like all those celebrities dying, politics essential fucking everything up, and the incident of March 31st. But that shouldn't stop me from looking back going. I had a good year. because there were moments in which I had some amazing times. And all today (as I am writing this on 1/1/17) I have seen people posting pictures of some of their favourite moments of the year, and I thought I would like to do that as a blog post. So here goes.

January 8th- Bowling at Namco. Amy could possibly kill me for this picture but embrace the weirdness is all I will say. I liked this trip because it was at a different bowling place to what we were used to, and it was pretty fun. I mainly remember taking lots of weird photo's with everybody, with one even featuring myself Amy and Emma trying to show off our bowling shoes in the same frame as our fun facial expressions.

So there is a gap here. Not because my life was that uneventful, well it kind of was. But mainly all it was going to work and seeing my ex who, as you would know if you are a regular to my blog, I have deleted from my life. Therefore we jump ahead exactly 3 months after. Weird.

April 8th- I love this because pretty much everyone came together to join in celebration for mine and Maddy's birthday. Even though it was a week before, but that was because people were heading back to Uni. It was such a fun night chatting to everyone. Also like the only group event in which I was single. So pretty important part of 2016.

April 22nd- It was a more quiet group gathering for Siobhan's birthday, but still lots of fun dressing up, playing just dance, and myself getting slightly tipsy on Peach Schnapps. 

May 7th- This was a cute little beach trip with the girls. It was fun because it was different. There was singing in the car and building Elcaplam, then going on the arcade and the Waltzers. 

July 23rd- We had so much fun on this trip we went to the beach again, with a few differences, and it was so good. Need to do this again next Spring/Summer!

Sorry about the time jump, just thought it made logical sense. But then again it doesn't. Oh well no going back now!

June 10th- First time experiencing gravity for Connor's birthday. And despite going after walking there from work (it's over an hours walk) I had a really nice time. We even went to Pizza Hut after and it was just great.  

July 1st- More bowling, and this one was good because as you can witness I got a strike, and it was in the best way possible, and all the guys who were try harding, were very jealous. I also got to take silly pictures with friends, and I love this one because I love Maddy.

July 22nd- This picture isn't from that day, it's actually from December 10th, but this is basically to show the rekindling of my friendship with Scott. Which was unexpected, but I'm happy it happened, as he allows me to rant and is there to listen. 

Another time jump, filled with another Gravity trip (fighting friends in Gladiator style), and more bowling (seeing what new creative ways I could lose in). There was also drinking at various group things, like Scott's birthday where I drank from the pitcher and we met Pablo, and let's not forget drunk bowling! I did enjoys these moments, but I didn't want to repeat myself too much. There was also little meet ups in the city which I didn't really get pictures of. 

October 31st- Not my typical halloween, but I loved in nonetheless. It was the start of a new tradition of meeting up with the girls I've worked/work with. I felt like I finally fitted in. 

Another time jump, through bowling on Claire's Birthday (getting a little drunk and completing a shopkins puzzle, after getting mad at people for stealing a piece) and more of the work meet ups.

December 20th- The Great Christmas meet up. I have talked about this in another blog and shown the big group photo, but I wanted to show this one because I'm actually looking.

Obviously they were just a few of the moments, and my friends have made 2016 a pretty great year considering everything else that happens. I hope you all have a wonderful 2017, and I hope I do as well. See you when I see you!

The Christmas Spirit.

Happy Holidays.

So I'm not very Christmassy. Like belting a good xmas tune and wearing a hideous jumper is the furthest I will delve into the festivities. Anything before December is also a no go. If you start celebrating too early it gets boring. I'm sorry. I'm a scrooge. Get over it.

As you would have read in a previous post (assuming you are a regular to my blog and insist on reading all 400+ posts (if you have actually done that I will congratulate you)). I was prepared in terms of my Christmas presents, and as far as I am aware everyone loved what they got. Which is a part I get very excited for. And I do enjoy getting gifts too, mainly because I like knowing how well people know me. I have amazing people in my life. So here are some pictures of what I received from these awesome bunch of humans I associate myself with.

Not 1 but 2 Ariel's! My friends know me too well.Casual Selfie's in the T-shirts as well. 

All the gifts from my family. Such as weird array of items. But that's me I guess. 

I also got some presents from people at work, which made me very happy. Even though I did abandon work for an entire week. I booked the week off before you make any judgements. So how do I spend my week of the Christmas holidays. Well I see my sister for last minute xmas shopping. Because it never ends. I then spent Thursday with my mum, sister and grandparents. The next day I was back with my grandparents, but this time my cousin and her daughters were there. I went to my sisters Christmas Eve with Hal so in the morning we could prepare for Christmas with the parents, then to Nan's on boxing day.

Let's not forget about the Grand Friend reunion. Which featured 22 of us gathering in my favourite drinking place (Hollywood Bowl, I know so cool, but cheap drinks and dead atmosphere is what appeals to me). It was a really great night and I can't believe everyone turned up. Some people more than others. And even though there was some drama, which I am not going to talk about as I don't think it needs to be given the attention it wanted. I had a really nice time. I discovered how good pineapple juice is with Vodka, rediscovered how bad I am at pool and got to chat with people I don't talk to very often.

Yes, I have my eyes closed in the picture. But be thankful I'm even looking in the right direction.

So thank you to everyone who made my Christmas awesome. And I hope those people are still around for future celebrations. Next up New Year. Woop. Woop. See you when I see you!

You Have Been Deleted.

Firstly, I don't actually find the cybermen that scary. But Doctor Who conversations are not the purpose of this post.

When I rebooted my blog I said about how my last relationship turned to shit and the one thing I hated most was how much I mentioned the twat on this blog. Because I set it up to be able to look back on in the future to remember the happy things. And he is not a happy thing. So what I decided to do was go back and delete him out. So all those posts he wrote himself, every mention of his name, or a subtle reference to him. Gone. Some posts were easier to fix than others. Like simply clicking the delete button to get rid of the whole post, or getting rid of his name and the sentence still made sense. But some things I had to alter so it was grammatically correct. 

It was a very time consuming process but I am glad to have done it. Like when I deleted all the pictures of us and untagging myself from posts. The sad part is how it looks like I haven't really done anything for those two years of my life. That's why I'm most angry with him. Because I feel like it was such a waste of time, and I look like an idiot for even being with him. But I guess all things happen for a reason. . 

So now all that is left to do is hope that I never have to have anything to do with my ex. Which is currently difficult because he is a part of the friendship group. But I'm just going to start convincing myself we were never even together and maybe that will make the situation happier. 

Deleting is probably the best way forward, as harsh as it may seem. But that's life. And I have nothing more to say on the matter. See you when I see you. 

Organised (For Once).

Hey. You know when you always tell yourself that you are going to plan ahead, and you get your lists and little highlighter pens, and you plan, plan, plan. But then you forget all about it and it's the day of the thing you were planning for. That's me. All the time. I love planning, hate doing shit. Like when to do coursework, and most importantly. Buying presents. Last minute madness is usually my game. And when it comes to Christmas it usually means you get a shittier gift.

But this year I've planned ahead. I've actually ordered pretty much all of my presents before December has even started. Oh My God. Dun Dun Dun. Etc. And it's been so good. I have such great ideas for my presents, and I have even gotten gifts for those whose birthdays are around Christmas, and I just feel so organised.

My one issue is, I just want to tell everyone what I got them. I can't wait for Christmas to let them see what they got, it's so far away! I myself don't really like surprises. So I desperately want to know what people have got me so I can only assume how they feel and I just want to share, but I can't because it spoils everything, and it's just so frustrating. But I'll get by I guess. I am worried about the presents I haven't gotten yet, because I have no clue what to do. And that will end up being stressy times. But I still have time, and for once I do have money at my disposal.

Now all I need to do is stick with being organised for my level 3 coursework. Because I do find it difficult to balance my work, social life and family with my own personal time. Like I get so stressed out if I don't have any time to myself. I barely play sims anymore. Even though I bought the new expansion pack. Played it once so far. Had it like 2-3 weeks. Waste of money. Which is frustrating, but I want to be able to play it.

On the other hand, there are a couple of things in my life I am not very organised with, but should be if I actually want them to happen. Such as driving and moving out. Like I talk about doing these so often, but do I actually make a plan? Fuck off. I plan to make a plan but never get round to it, because it's real world shit that means I'm an adult, and there is no way I am jumping onto that. With driving it's mainly I don't want to commit to it, because I hate failing things. With moving out it's just impossible to make convenient. Like I don't want to live alone but don't have anyone to move in with, and I have to accommodate the location with accessibility to work and it's just too much stress trying to work it out with my financial situation so I just don't bother looking. But that won't get me anywhere.

So am I actually organised for once? Probably not. But it's nice to think I am sometimes. The only things I tend to plan are my meals for the week. Which now I say it is a little sad. But that's my life in a nutshell really. Wish me luck with my organisational skills. See you when I see you!

What's Happened To Me?

Hey. It's been a while. A very long while. But I thought to myself I miss it. We all know how this is going to end up though. I write a post saying all the things I want to do but never actually achieve. It's because I have no time anymore. I go to work I come home from work, spend a bit of time with my mum talk to people and sleep. So as you have noticed there are a couple of changes to the blog. Hopefully to make things a little easier to read as people used to complain (I did it so people couldn't pay attention to detail), but I'm going to avoid all that, mainly because that was what took up so much of the time. Also I thought it would be nice for a change as I'm not exactly the same person I was when I started this blog. I remember a couple of months back I thought it would be easier to have a fresh start on a new blog but that soon got forgotten about. Much like this surely will.

But I guess I should update you all on my life. When we left off, I had split up from my boyfriend (which is very awkward as he is mentioned so much on this blog, and I hate every part of it) And as I predicted things got ugly, he makes me hate my existence and I have felt like my two years with him never happened and there is just this gap in my life. Which is harsh I know, but if he didn't start acting the way he did I wouldn't feel this way. I didn't want all my memories to be tainted. But I'll go into more detail in another blog (probably...maybe...never). Plus side, I am happily with someone else who makes me so happy and manages to cheer me up when I feel shit. Which is a rather impressive skill. And it's been like 7 months now and I feel like we've been together this whole time. It's just right. Again maybe I will right about this in more detail in another blog. Promises, promises.

Also I was in the midsts of my Level 2 Apprenticeship, which I have now definitely completed! Woohoo! So I have progressed onto my Level 3 which can open up a lot more opportunities for me, and so far the work doesn't seem that difficult. The only issues I have had is having time to do things. Because of ratios I end up working so late, after starting early, I now only get a half an hour lunch instead of the full hour (which I used to get most of my work done in) because of my pay increasing. Only plus side. So by the time I get home it's like. Nah.

Other plus sides from work, is that I become so much part of the team I actually have work friends, that I see outside of work. I mean it all started because one of them decided to leave to pursue a new career, and we went round her for drinks, and now it's becoming a regular thing. There is a group of like 7 of us and we are meeting up weekly just chatting about anything. Today we literally planned a wedding for one of them who isn't even engaged yet.

It feels weird having new friends outside my usual group. But don't worry I have not forgotten about the ragtag group of awesomeness even though the dynamics have changed dramatically. I mean Jess and I don't talk anymore, Scott has re-entered my life as a good mate, I'm actually considering Connor as a good friend, and a certain someone is just a no. And as for Emily. Who the fuck knows what is happening there. I'll discuss in more detail in another post (doubt it).

Things are certainly different to three years ago when I started this blog. I mean I actually started it three years and four days ago. Maybe I should have thought about rebooting four days ago and it would have been a nice little 3 year anniversary bonanza. But I missed that opportunity, and I don't think I can wait a fourth year.

So I really hope I try to continue this weekly. Remember when I used to do it Daily? Oh those were the days. Well. I'll see you when I see you!

Let's Play The Sims 4.

Hello! So I realised I haven't really posted in awhile so thought I must. This is just going to be a quick little post about exactly what the title says. Basically I started recording myself playing the sims. I know finally right. And I have just uploaded my 3rd video so I thought I would share these on here. I mean they aren't that entertaining but it's a nice distraction from responsibilities. So yeah. Follow the links:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M1qHtY8MFPs < Creating the Weirdling: Basically me making the sim I play with. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Hy8l9q2pzw <The Dreamer's Home: Building the home for her to live in.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MDCAb-mTp4 <How To Make Friends: Getting out into the world making some friends, meeting some creeps. 

See you when I see you!