What If...?

Hello, my fellow "I need a distraction" people! So I was thinking about what I was going to blog about, something I spend most days doing but never really get round to doing half of the stuff I plan in my head. Sometimes it would be so much easier if when I thought of something to say it would just type it all up on my laptop (even when I'm not near it) and then formats itself. But I guess we have to do this the hard way. Well it's not really hard, just more effort I do not really have. Which is why it has taken me over a month to get a post out. I'm sorry, but I have been busy and lazy, which doesn't make sense. 

So yesterday I was having a lovely time socialising with my friends when Maddy asked me if I still posted on youtube and/or on here. My answer being not really, but I wanted to. Which got me thinking. What if I vlog more! Because I might find that easier than typing out what I want to do. But then I thought about it some more and it's probably going to be just as time consuming. First I would have to make myself look presentable, then film what I wish to film, then edit out all the stupid parts, and upload it. From what I remember about when I used to do this editing was the worst bit. But the most fun. 

I don't know! I always have ideas in my mind, I just never go through with them. I need like an assistant. Because I want to continue with all that stuff I used to do, because it made me less stressed as it let me escape from the actual stresses of my life for a bit. However, we all know how this is going to go down. I will start up for like a week or so then I will go silent for ages. Possibly forever. It's difficult when there is nothing really to talk about, and know time to talk about what i want to talk about. Ugh.

I'm sorry for being annoyed by this and constantly repeating myself, I just need help. I need to figure out what I actually want to be doing and giving myself time to do it all, and I need to stop being lazy with my life. 

This has probably been the worst thing to read by me so far, and I apologise, but help me clear my head. Offer suggestions on what you think. Or not. Whatever. 

I'll just see you when I see you!