Usually June tends to be the month in which I give up on my consistency in the past, from the second of the day adventures, blogging, vlogging, or trying to diet. My brain just gives up, and honestly it has happened a little within the month, and I think it is just because so much goes on and I enter some weird kind of survival mode. But a few slack days does not mean I just give up, no this is the new Elli.
I AM A FRIEND:
I feel like I have been a bit of a bad friend this month, particularly as I stopped doing my weekly check in I told myself I was going to do. I just start feeling uncomfortable, and scared of rejection. I did try to organise a little hang out, by inviting the group along to watch Toy Story 5 but to nobody's surprise everyone already had plans. But I have still been social with my parent friends, and I did manage to run into Paige in the Asda car park.
I AM A HOMEOWNER: On one of the occasions I had mother round, she mentioned the bird feeder she had gotten me for my birthday, and have yet to do anything with. So well done me I actually put it in the tree and put some feed in it. It was amusing to see how long it took Dean to notice I had put this up. The tidying of the house had been a little slack, but that is because there has been so much going on, and I still kept up with some chores, like laundry and dishes. In the build up to mine and Dean's weekend away I did become a lot more productive as I knew I would have the weekend to just relax and do nothing, and I was super proud of myself for cleaning my oven, as that is a task I always procrastinate.
I AM IN A FAMILY: With all the birthdays and fathers day, I felt like this month was very family driven. A bonus of going back to work is having the little walk with Dad on the way to breakfast club, and I enjoyed the moment we got to spend at the park as we had gotten their early. And even though I left it a little last minute I was able to scrounge together a little something to celebrate father's day (though this led to an argument with Nora because she insists we shouldn't celebrate Granddad on father's day). Hariette had joined Nora and I on a few of our outings, and mum and I had lots of catch ups on the phone. One social event I was worried about was that Dean's family were having a barbecue. Now social interaction is always tricky, and added to that was Nora was also going and her level of interaction can be even worse. Which for the first part it was. She didn't want to talk, eat and just kept asking to go home. But once Dean's aunt and uncle turned up, and she had some cake, her tune changed and I think we all had a really nice time, and I was proud of the effort I had made to interact with lots of people I didn't really know. I was also super proud of Nora who stepped out of her comfort zone to interact with some of the other children there, she had so much fun to the point she then didn't want to leave. 
I AM AN EMPLOYEE: I have successfully gone back to working at least one full day a week, and the only time I didn't was because the manager closed the nursery early due to heat safety. I have been able to contribute to numerous tasks, try to connect with fellow colleagues, and just be more proud of the work I do each shift. I did take one sick day, but this was because of the heat and nausea compared to mental breakdowns and stuff, so I think that is a win, because everybody gets sick!
So the summer is off to a sweltering start and it is only going to continue. SEND HELP. Here are my goals aside from not spontaneously combusting.
- Create a habit to journal for my mental health.
- Message each of my friends for a check in.
- Create a plan for how we will spend her summer holiday.
- Take clutter to the charity shop!
- Make my mum feel special for her birthday.
- Recreate the quality time we had on our weekend away.
- Complete my summative assessments on time.
See you when I see you!