A Weight Has Been Lifted.

I'm not really sure how to start this post. I feel like it's been so long since I last posted I may as well just give up with the blog entirely. And that's because I've not really had the head space for it. I've not really had the head space for much aside from, going to work, and thinking of ways I never have to go to work again. And it got pretty bad, and I went into a state I liked to call Hermit-ting. Which is basically hide away on your own and hope that you just disappear. Which was not healthy. But I was getting to the point I didn't know what to do. 

To sum up the story. I've been signed off work for the next 4 weeks. And as soon as I was told this news, I was so happy. Because the stress I've felt from work had just gotten to much, and I felt like I wouldn't do things for myself, or when I did I couldn't fully enjoy it because I was tired. Therefore I feel relieved that for the next month, I can just do what I want, and not have to worry about it. Until it comes to the time I have to go back. If I go back. Those are the conversations I have to have with myself and it is terrifying. 

My plans in this time to try and get away from my hermit state, be productive. So I will be:

• Looking for new jobs, that will not be as stressful and hopefully closer to where I live. 
• Cleaning my flat and regaining some kind of routine to keep on top of it. 
• Seeing my friends and family, because when I look back at the stressful times being with people was the only time I was happy. 
• Starting up my diet again, because it failed due to stress eating. This will also link with starting to exercise. 
• Blogging/editing videos. As I had a few videos in the editing stage that have never gotten further than that, and I just like these times because it's a chance to be creative, and now I don't have the stress of work it would be good. 
• Playing sims. Because I spent a lot of money on this game, and I don't really play it enough because I just never had the time. 

I'm excited to have this period of time, even though I wish it didn't get to the level it got. And I also hope that I don't get to that point again, especially coming to the end of the time away. We will see. 

Sorry this is a weird post, but I just wanted to kind of use this as my thinking space, because this is a weird time for me. To be fair when aren't times weird for me. 

See you when I see you!