My First Adult Holiday.

So, this might be an insanely long post, or not depends how lazy I get. Which is very likely. But this post as you can tell from the title, is about my first holiday away from my parents. It’s terrifying. I had to book it all myself which makes me very nervous because what if something goes wrong. Which is very likely.

Now partly because we are poor, and partly because I don’t have a passport, and partly because I have a serious fear of flying, we decided to stay in the United Kingdom. And Matt offered to drive. Stupid. Because I decided that I wanted to go to Scotland. Well we agreed together, as it was somewhere neither of us had been before so the thrill was in the Adventure. ADVENTURE IS OUT THERE! Stupid. Because I forget I have a slight anxiety over getting lost. But I had the belief that Matthew would take care of me and all would be well.

Because I had no idea on what there was to do in Scotland I felt we couldn’t dedicate the whole week to it, plus we’d have to stop on the way if Matthew is driving the whole way up. Therefore, I first stop was Whitby. The drive up was pretty good, and Matt enjoyed some of the roads, only problem being when we got in Whitby and Matt hated how pedestrians used the road as a path, and there was lots of traffic, and practically no parking. But once we got inside the hotel and had a rest, and watched Game of Thrones, we ventured on a little explore and had a lovely night. Then the next morning we tried going in a shop my mum wanted me to go in, but even though they said they were open they were closed. Annoying. So, the journey to Scotland commenced.

Now I have never experienced car Sickness before, but there was just this whole messed up period on the motorway where I had the worst headache, a sore throat, a sickness feeling, and to top it all off I needed to pee. Like Bad. Luckily, we weren’t that far away from a roundabout that had a McDonalds. And we got back on the road after some food and rest. Now the views guys, were incredible. I tried to film or take pictures but honestly the camera doesn’t do it justice and I felt bad for Matt because unless he wanted to crash the car he couldn’t witness them with me. But I loved them, and I am very thankful to him for that.

However, he did manage to see a few and enjoyed the drive up there, doing his weird giggle because of some weird car fanboy thing. He must be weird, he’s with me. And we got to hotel number two and had a rest trying to find somewhere to eat later. This was a struggle, because it all involved driving somewhere and finding parking. I found a Pizza hut in a little mall type thing so parking was like right next to it. But the problem is, not knowing where the fuck we are going. He was swearing, I was incorrectly reading google maps. It was a mess. But we made it through. And I guess that is the most important thing. Coming out of shit times still happy together. Well to be fair it’s not like he could just abandon me in Scotland. Or could he… I better be on my best behaviour.

After food, we came back to the Travelodge, and chilled out ready for our big day at the zoo. We got about 9.30 and was there until about 4. So big day. The zoo was awesome, and it was peaceful to start with. I saw Zebras and Otters and Koalas and Pandas and Penguins and a tonne of Monkeys. And other animals of course. They even take some of the penguins around the zoo for a little walk and it was so cute. I took so many photos and little videos which I will snippet for you. Then of course we went in the gift shop, and I got myself a cuddle panda, obviously. And then a couple of gifts for the family.

As we finished earlier than we thought we decided to explore more of the city side of Edinburgh. We went into the local Primark and I got two cute new dresses. We went into a couple of random shops so I could get some gifts and just went on some walks. The view was so good. We stopped for some food and decided to head back, mainly because our phones were practically dead from all the picture taking. This wasn’t a good walk because I got very panicked about our phones dying and not finding our way back. Luckily Matt was there to be reassuring, not that I accepted this at the time. Thankfully, we survived to go back to our hotel and watch YouTube.

The next day we packed our things and headed into road trip number 3 the journey to Garmouth. Which is the closest place I could find to the dolphin centre. Guys driving on the motorways in Scotland is so good, purely through the views. So, make sure you are the passenger so you get to enjoy it. But literally every five minutes I look over like wow oh my god. Nature is just so beautiful sometimes. Aside from this the drive can be boring because I don’t have much to do. I’ve been singing along to songs. Making weird video clips in hopes of putting it together for a YouTube video. And writing some of this blog post.  I don’t know why but I am unable to nap. Which is mean because I love a good nap. However, if I fell asleep who would be there to tell Matt to turn but then get the turning wrong?  He does provide me with some entertainment bless him, but most of the time he is concentrating to protect us from death. So, I think I’ll take boredom over that.

Now I’ve noticed this is a very long post, so I thought, lets make this a too be continued.

If you’d like to find out about our Dolphin trip, Scarborough adventures, and if we make it home in one piece, please check back in next Thursday.

See you when I see you! 

Gossip Girl.

Gossip girl here. And today I will be talking to you about everything Gossip Girl. Now I know that it is not completely relevant anymore considering the finale was back in 2012. But I have only recently discovered it on Netflix. I mean I have heard of the show before a day Hariette had given me a partial spoiler before I even decided to watch it, but I went from having no interest to being a bit obsessed. So I thought I would give some opinions.




WARNING: May include spoilers! 




So at first I wasn't too invested in anything, because I saw it as a serious I could just have on in the background when doing other things. Then around the end of season 1 I noticed myself caring about certain things more than I should. Mainly the Dan and Serena relationship. And the whole shit with Georgina. And you sit there thinking how much an idiot Serena is for not telling Dan the truth. Then in season two they get back together but break up. And they yoyo so fucking much that you get so enraged. They end it with them getting married, which is cute and appeals to my ship love, but in all honest towards the end Dan was such a dick to her, which made her be a bit of a bitch to him in return, and I honestly do not think that is a healthy relationship.

Nate annoys me the most for this because he goes from Blair to Serena back to Blair, to Jenny to Vanessa to some random old lady who plays Betty's mom in RiverDale.  Back to Vanessa back to Jenny all the way back to Blair. With some random girl who I recognise from a show but can't remember what. Then gets back with Serena, and Jenny appears again. Make up your fucking mind! And then it just keeps going. Trish from Harper's Island, Weird posh lady, Charley but not Charley, Charley but Lola. Wait.. Charley and Lola was that meant to represent the children's book? I doubt it. I only just thought about it. Anywho. Nate needs to get tested. Well he did in one episode to be fair.

To be fair they all fucking get around in this show. I want to draw a map of all the relationships that go on. That is the only thing that made me happy about the final episode. All my ships came back together. Chuck and Blair finally concluded their tortuous roller-coaster off again on again, and got married and had a little boy who is so darn cute. Some elements of their relationship did go a bit extreme though, like when she got kidnapped by that guy who had a vendetta against Chuck. To be fair most of the storylines with Chuck were extreme. His father dying, his uncle being an ass to take the company, Lily adopting him to let the uncle not take the company, the evil guy trying to take the company, being shot, pretending he was someone else, finding out his mum was actually alive, getting into a car crash, turns out someone else was his real mother, finding out that they pretended to be his real mother, thinking it was because his uncle was his father, turns out it's because his dad faked his own death, accidentally murdering his father because his dad was trying to kill him. You know everyday life. At least he looked good doing it all.

Chuck was by far my favourite character, even though he started off as a dick, but I think it was his turn around that made him all that more awesome. But then again there was Darota. Who was simply amazing all the time. It's probably why so many thought it would be her that was gossip girl. And I think if it wasn't already spoiled for me that Gossip Girl was indeed Gossip Guy then I'd have thought that too. It would be far better than who it really was.

That being...Dan. Which when I watched the first episode I thought it would be Dan, and then as the serious progressed I turned off this idea. Why? Because it became too obvious to me. He was a writer, and even wrote a book about them all in a similar style to gossip girl. So it being Dan was not shocking enough for me. And even though I hated Nate I would have preferred it to be him because towards the end he was trying to really find out who gossip girl was and they always went on about how he never sent in any tips, and it was like, because I was Gossip Girl, and the others would be like, So why are you trying to find out who you are? Which to be fair is the ultimate cover up.

To conclude, I feel empty, because the drama is over and the result is disappointing. Much like Pretty Little Liars. And I want to find a new series to watch but I fear the same investment and being let down at the end will just keep occurring. But if you have any suggestions feel free to give them to me.

You know you love me.
XOXO Gossip Girl.

A Music Tag.

Hello, so this is probably something I haven't done in a while, a tag! So you should all thank Siobhan for posting this tag first (which you can read here) and providing me with the idea to do this myself. From what I made out they are two separate tags based around music. And I love music. So why the fuck not? I've merged them together though so enjoy my answers!

1). A song that would play during a zombie apocalypse movie:

     If it's like the kind of grungy trying to get by part of the Zombie apocalypse I'd go with "Wasps" by The Red Paintings.

2). A song that reminds you of a special place:

     I wouldn't say I really had a special place but whenever I hear "Happy Together" by The Turtles I always  montage the happy times in my mind so I guess that counts. Or "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane.

3). A song you'd like to kiss to: 

    Well assuming I was kissing Matthew, I'd want to play anything That Poppy because it would annoy him, and he's very cute when he's annoyed, but more seriously it would either be "Shout about it" or "Risk it all" both by The Vamps.

4). A song that you'd get the lyrics of tattooed on yourself: 

     "We are like Young Volcanoes" with a little drawing of a volcano, from the song "Young Volcanoes" by Fall Out Boy. Just because it would be super cute, and it's one of my favourite songs. Or it would be "What would I give if I could live, out of this water" from "Part of Your World" The Little Mermaid, so I can have Ariel tattooed on me. 

5). A song that reminds you of a fictional character: 

     Well Melanie Martinez's "Mad Hatter" reminds me of Alice in wonderland, but I'm not sure that counts because it is partially what the song is based off of. 

6). A song that was your anthem in middle school:

     Wow, I don't remember much of Middle School. I know I loved Black Eyed Peas, "Where is the Love?" being a classic. I also loved Lily Allen and Avril Lavigne. The usual suspects.

7). A song that reminds you of your best friend: 

    "Bohemian Like You" The Dandy Warhols.

8). A song that would play during the movie trailer of your life:

     "Everything's Just Wonderful" by Lily Allen, because some lyrics are just very applicable. 

9). A song you cry to:

     "Never Be Alone" Shawn Mendes.

10). A song you drive to:

       "Alone Together" Fall out Boy, or "Irresistible"

11).A song that reminds you of your childhood:

     "Numa Numa" by Dragostea Din Tei. Still one of the greatests.

12). Your favourite song from last year:

        "Tag You're It" Melanie Martinez.

13). A song that reminds you of your favourite season:

      "Sunny Afternoon" The Kinks, which you think mainly about Summer, but it can still be linked to Spring which is my favourite season.

14). A song by an artist you're crushing on: 

       "Treat you Better" Shawn Mendes.

15). A song with a colour in the title: 

       "Ultraviolet" The Stiff Dylans. Fell in love with it since Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.

16). What are your favourite 5 songs right now? 

       This is so difficult. 

        "It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine, I'm Thinking It Must Be Love" by Fall Out Boy.

        "Lowlife" ThatPoppy

        "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" My Chemical Romance

        "Stacey's Mom" Fountains of Wayne

        "Mr Brightside" The Killers.

17).What is the most played song on your itunes? 

      I don't have iTunes, but my most played song is probably something Fall Out Boy. 

18). What song are you listening to right now? 

       "Everybody's Fool" by Evanescence.

19). What was the last album you bought? t

       I don't think I have ever actually purchased an album.

20). What was the last gig you went to? 

      It was a small fundraiser gig at the Brickmakers, Mainly went to hear Enigma. 

21). What song can you not get out of your head? 

       "Well since I mentioned it "Numa Numa"

22). What song do you listen to everyday? 

     Most of the ones I have already mentioned.

23). What was the first album you ever bought? 

       Again don't think I have ever actually purchased an album.

24). What was the last single you downloaded? 

       "Treat you Better" Shawn Mendes.

25). What is your favourite band right now? 

       It will always and forever be Fall Out Boy.

26). Who is you favourite artist right now?

       Male- Shawn Mendes

       Female- Melanie Martinez

Two very different artists.

27). What is your favourite type of music?

       As Matthew likes to remind me I have a very mismatch of music. I go from pop to rock to quite dark shit. Basically my favourite type is good music. And that tends to be a lot more when I have alcohol/get in the party spirit. 

28). In your 25 most played songs what is number 10? 

       "Milk and Cookies" Melanie Martinez. 

29). Quote one of your favourite lyrics.

       "Take a piece of my heart, and make it all your own. So when we are apart, you'll never be alone." from "Never Be Alone" by Shawn Mendes.

30). Do you listen to music everyday?

       If not on my phone or laptop, I definitely sing it in my head. 

So that was an eventful tag. A fun distraction from what I am supposed to be doing. But as I always say it is why we are here. See you when I see you!

How I Like My Hair.

You can tell I'm running out of things to talk about can't you. But to me my hair is a very big deal. Because it's the basis of whether or not I think I look good. And people can tell me otherwise, doesn't change how I feel.

I think it comes from my face shape. Because sometimes my face can look really fat and round but if my hair is in a certain it looks nice and angled. I mean sometimes it can also be a filter I use or the actual position of the camera. But most of the time I find if I move my fair I look better.

If you've known me a while you'll know I've essentially had the same hairstyle since I was in my last year of middle school. Essentially being a side fringe parted on my left side and length mainly around my shoulders. I tend to hate having my hair up, because of the fringe not flowing properly without the support of the rest of my hair (which I do preferred to be layered and somewhat voluminous) but since I have to wear it up for work I do grow to like it a bit more. As long as my fringe is not tied back. I'm not entirely sure why. I think it's mainly lyrics due to me hating my eyebrows with a passion. Never stare at my eyebrows. So by always having one partially covered up it makes them less noticeable. Plus when you tie it back I get the weird pokey put bits of my ponytail.

Sometimes I just hate the ponytail because of how it waves  and the way my hair has to cling to my skull, highlighting my weird head shape. So sometimes I have to loosen it a bit, but then it goes bumpy. It's a struggle. You can tell I'm running out of things to talk about can't you. But to me my hair is a very big deal. Because it's the basis of whether or not I think I look good. And people can tell me otherwise, doesn't change how I feel.

I think it comes from my face shape. Because sometimes my face can look really fat and round but if my hair is in a certain it looks nice and angled. I mean sometimes it can also be a filter I use or the actual position of the camera. But most of the time I find if I move my fair I look better.

If you've known me a while you'll know I've essentially had the same hairstyle since I was in my last year of middle school. Essentially being a side fringe parted on my left side and length mainly around my shoulders. I tend to hate having my hair up, because of the fringe not flowing properly without the support of the rest of my hair (which I do preferred to be layered and somewhat voluminous) but since I have to wear it up for work I do grow to like it a bit more. As long as my fringe is not tied back. I'm not entirely sure why. I think it's mainly lyrics due to me hating my eyebrows with a passion. Never stare at my eyebrows. So by always having one partially covered up it makes them less noticeable. Plus when you tie it back I get the weird pokey put bits of my ponytail.

Sometimes I just hate the ponytail because of how it waves  and the way my hair has to cling to my skull, highlighting my weird head shape. So sometimes I have to loosen it a bit, but then it goes bumpy. It's a struggle. I did wear my hair in a full pony tail around London, and I'll be honest I didn't completely hate it. Trying to take a nice photo though was irritating. Since my hair has grown longer I had started to learn to plait my hair in fun ways. But the way my hair looks against my hair does put me off. I like to have a change. I want to have a change. But to me the only logical solution is to have a new face shape.

I've considered going back to a full fringe like in my early youth, because a side fringe is too much upkeep to look nice all the time. But I have this fear of it getting cut wrong. And I've cried at getting my hair cut before. It's what started the Alice band phase. And we are not going back to that. But I just don't know what to do about the length of my hair. Because I can really like how it looks long  it just gets quite heavy and weirdly wavy. But I could never go too short because then it doesn't frame my face right. Even though short hair was my mum's favourite look on me.

This is a wig, don't be scared. 

I don't know. I think I should just stick with what I know. As I remember in middle school I so desperately wanted a side fringe I would just take a section of hair and seperate it, despite it being the same length. But I do fear sticking with it makes me boring. Much like this post.  Which I am only writing because I am bored whilst sat on a train. Hence it's weird structure, poor grammar, and large amounts of what the fuck is going on. But thank you for sticking with me. See you when I see you!