I Don't Know About You, But I'm Feeling 22.

And considering how freaked out I got about turning 21, we all remember the Rapunzel Hair Chop, I am actually feeling pretty good about being 22. It's like I have the lyrics to Lily Allen's song 22 where she states that the future looks bright at 22. And finally I see that mine is. Because I have a great family, great friends, a great job, and I'm going to give birth to a great little girl. Now I'm thinking I said great too many times and it doesn't sound believable. Anywho... I'm seeing this birthday as my new beginning. I know I said this to myself at the start of the year, but I was still in the bad place. I've had help since. I've just been better since. So despite that fact I really do not like the number 2, and the fact it is now displayed twice in my age, I am happy.

So let's just talk about how I celebrated shall we? I'd say it was a full weekend event. Which was nice, I was able to split the balance of friends and family quite well. On the Saturday I organised a trip with a small group of friends to go to one of my favourite places in the world. Hemsby. And yeah it was super windy, and therefore a little cold, I'd say we were quite blessed with the weather (and it was better than when we made the same trip attempt two years ago), as it rained on the way there and hailed as we were then leaving, but other than that the sun was out.

So we managed to go on the beach for a little while. This time I did not brave the sea, as much as I wanted to, the waves seemed pretty crazy, and I have a little one inside me I need to protect. But we sat on some towels and just had chats and catch ups while Jordan persisted to throw stones into a bin. After that we went to go get some chips, and finally ventured to the arcades! Where some people *cough*Scott*cough* went a little crazy on the machines. But I'd like to think everyone had a good time. I certainly did.

After this I decided to get the bus to Horsford so I could spend my Birthday with the family. My birthday was a little more chilled, than the Saturday, starting with just laying in bed, and saying happy birthday to someone other than myself, because as most of you know (because it's probably only her that reads this) I share my birthday with my best friend Maddy. Shortly after that my sister came in to share her card before she went to work. My parents then took me to see my nanny, and it was really nice to see her for a catch up. Then we went for a meal at Zaks, which was delicious as always. I got back to have cuddles with my Sebbles, which was definitely a highlight of the day. And I finished up my birthday at home, just chilling with someone pretty cool.

 This post doesn't make sense, but who cares? Things are good! See you when I see you!

My Mum.

As some of you may have been aware, last Sunday was Mother's Day, so I thought I would like to take this opportunity to talk about my own mother. Because she is just the greatest person on the planet, which I know is a rather cliche thing to say. I did make a similar Mother's day post 5 years ago. Yes 5, that's how long I've been writing this damn blog for. Will I ever get bored of it? Probably not, I like to consider it my safe space. Anywho, if you want to check out that brief mentioning about my mother you can click this handy little link.
 So really I just want to thank my mum for everything she has done for me. I can't imagine it has been particularly easy for her to look after me. When we were younger my sister and I would always fight, and didn't really contribute to housework. Then our teenage years only left more drama, with puberty emotions and exam stress. She was always a good support during these times. Not that I ever really accepted it, because I always felt unsure about talking to her about my problems. Mainly because for as long as I can remember she has struggled with anxiety and depression, so I always felt what I was going through was minor in comparison. So didn't want to either bother her, or add to her stress. But despite what she goes through she always tries to be there for others, like supporting her friends, or trying to be the strong one when our family found out bad news. Because it mustn't have been easy for her either.

Despite all this I've known her to be a positive person. She likes to tell me that she just focuses on the now, because the past and future are out of her control, so why worry about it. And I wish I can think more like that. But the fact she has gone through this is why I think she was able to support me so much over the last year. Even though at first I didn't want her to know anything, because I didn't want her opinion of me to change. I didn't want her to stop being proud of me. But I don't think she ever will be. She always says me and Hariette are the best thing to happen to her.

And I think it is because of her that I know I can be a great mother. Because I have her as my example. So my little girl is going to be incredibly lucky to have this woman as a Nanny (she doesn't want to be a grandmother as that makes her feel old). From the moment she found out, she was nothing but thrilled, and will often refer say when talking to my bump that she is her baby. And the amount of stuff my mum has already helped get for her just feels like an endless list.

So yeah I just wanted to make this post to say how incredible my mum is. Not that she would ever read this, because I don't think she even knows my blog exists. I'm not sure what she'd actually make of it, but I'd imagine if she knew how to work the software she would have a blog. Because she likes writing, not physically because she has arthritis and it hurts her wrists, but I remember reading poems and things she used to write. I think it's why I like to use this type of creative space. I get writing from her and drawing from my dad. Because he's pretty incredible too. But Father's Day isn't until June ;)

Well I guess that is all I can really say. I could go into details of hilarious stories and things about her but who has the time for that. And I'm sure there will be more opportunities for that, maybe a post dedicated to her on her birthday, or next year on Mother's day, because I'm sure I'll still be blogging around then, despite having my own baby to look after. See you when I see you!