The Christmas Spirit.

Happy Holidays.

So I'm not very Christmassy. Like belting a good xmas tune and wearing a hideous jumper is the furthest I will delve into the festivities. Anything before December is also a no go. If you start celebrating too early it gets boring. I'm sorry. I'm a scrooge. Get over it.

As you would have read in a previous post (assuming you are a regular to my blog and insist on reading all 400+ posts (if you have actually done that I will congratulate you)). I was prepared in terms of my Christmas presents, and as far as I am aware everyone loved what they got. Which is a part I get very excited for. And I do enjoy getting gifts too, mainly because I like knowing how well people know me. I have amazing people in my life. So here are some pictures of what I received from these awesome bunch of humans I associate myself with.

Not 1 but 2 Ariel's! My friends know me too well.Casual Selfie's in the T-shirts as well. 

All the gifts from my family. Such as weird array of items. But that's me I guess. 

I also got some presents from people at work, which made me very happy. Even though I did abandon work for an entire week. I booked the week off before you make any judgements. So how do I spend my week of the Christmas holidays. Well I see my sister for last minute xmas shopping. Because it never ends. I then spent Thursday with my mum, sister and grandparents. The next day I was back with my grandparents, but this time my cousin and her daughters were there. I went to my sisters Christmas Eve with Hal so in the morning we could prepare for Christmas with the parents, then to Nan's on boxing day.

Let's not forget about the Grand Friend reunion. Which featured 22 of us gathering in my favourite drinking place (Hollywood Bowl, I know so cool, but cheap drinks and dead atmosphere is what appeals to me). It was a really great night and I can't believe everyone turned up. Some people more than others. And even though there was some drama, which I am not going to talk about as I don't think it needs to be given the attention it wanted. I had a really nice time. I discovered how good pineapple juice is with Vodka, rediscovered how bad I am at pool and got to chat with people I don't talk to very often.

Yes, I have my eyes closed in the picture. But be thankful I'm even looking in the right direction.

So thank you to everyone who made my Christmas awesome. And I hope those people are still around for future celebrations. Next up New Year. Woop. Woop. See you when I see you!

You Have Been Deleted.

Firstly, I don't actually find the cybermen that scary. But Doctor Who conversations are not the purpose of this post.

When I rebooted my blog I said about how my last relationship turned to shit and the one thing I hated most was how much I mentioned the twat on this blog. Because I set it up to be able to look back on in the future to remember the happy things. And he is not a happy thing. So what I decided to do was go back and delete him out. So all those posts he wrote himself, every mention of his name, or a subtle reference to him. Gone. Some posts were easier to fix than others. Like simply clicking the delete button to get rid of the whole post, or getting rid of his name and the sentence still made sense. But some things I had to alter so it was grammatically correct. 

It was a very time consuming process but I am glad to have done it. Like when I deleted all the pictures of us and untagging myself from posts. The sad part is how it looks like I haven't really done anything for those two years of my life. That's why I'm most angry with him. Because I feel like it was such a waste of time, and I look like an idiot for even being with him. But I guess all things happen for a reason. . 

So now all that is left to do is hope that I never have to have anything to do with my ex. Which is currently difficult because he is a part of the friendship group. But I'm just going to start convincing myself we were never even together and maybe that will make the situation happier. 

Deleting is probably the best way forward, as harsh as it may seem. But that's life. And I have nothing more to say on the matter. See you when I see you. 

Organised (For Once).

Hey. You know when you always tell yourself that you are going to plan ahead, and you get your lists and little highlighter pens, and you plan, plan, plan. But then you forget all about it and it's the day of the thing you were planning for. That's me. All the time. I love planning, hate doing shit. Like when to do coursework, and most importantly. Buying presents. Last minute madness is usually my game. And when it comes to Christmas it usually means you get a shittier gift.

But this year I've planned ahead. I've actually ordered pretty much all of my presents before December has even started. Oh My God. Dun Dun Dun. Etc. And it's been so good. I have such great ideas for my presents, and I have even gotten gifts for those whose birthdays are around Christmas, and I just feel so organised.

My one issue is, I just want to tell everyone what I got them. I can't wait for Christmas to let them see what they got, it's so far away! I myself don't really like surprises. So I desperately want to know what people have got me so I can only assume how they feel and I just want to share, but I can't because it spoils everything, and it's just so frustrating. But I'll get by I guess. I am worried about the presents I haven't gotten yet, because I have no clue what to do. And that will end up being stressy times. But I still have time, and for once I do have money at my disposal.

Now all I need to do is stick with being organised for my level 3 coursework. Because I do find it difficult to balance my work, social life and family with my own personal time. Like I get so stressed out if I don't have any time to myself. I barely play sims anymore. Even though I bought the new expansion pack. Played it once so far. Had it like 2-3 weeks. Waste of money. Which is frustrating, but I want to be able to play it.

On the other hand, there are a couple of things in my life I am not very organised with, but should be if I actually want them to happen. Such as driving and moving out. Like I talk about doing these so often, but do I actually make a plan? Fuck off. I plan to make a plan but never get round to it, because it's real world shit that means I'm an adult, and there is no way I am jumping onto that. With driving it's mainly I don't want to commit to it, because I hate failing things. With moving out it's just impossible to make convenient. Like I don't want to live alone but don't have anyone to move in with, and I have to accommodate the location with accessibility to work and it's just too much stress trying to work it out with my financial situation so I just don't bother looking. But that won't get me anywhere.

So am I actually organised for once? Probably not. But it's nice to think I am sometimes. The only things I tend to plan are my meals for the week. Which now I say it is a little sad. But that's my life in a nutshell really. Wish me luck with my organisational skills. See you when I see you!