I Can't Wait.

Hi there. So as I have already completely failed all my other resolutions this year. I told myself I just gave to persist with one. Blog more frequently. Let's just take a moment to remember the good old days when I blogged every single day. I found it so easy back then, but I guess more stuff happened. Whereas now I work but I'm not allowed to really discuss work and when I get home I eat and sleep. So not really blog worthy. But I'm trying. And today I thought I do a post not relating to the past but to the future! Basically I'm just going to say some things I am excited for. Let's begin.
The deadpool movie. Because it looks so funny and I love funny films. Because I don't really like action which is basically what the movie would be. And if you can't tell from my funko pop vinyl collection I do really like the deadpool character.

Speaking of films I am really looking forward to Suicide Squad. Mainly because I love Harley Quinn. The first trailer made me excited, I loved the song they used, and that got stuck in my head for ages, but I felt there wasn't enough of Harley, and I know it's not all about her, but I feel she has more to be excited for, which is why I was very pleased with the second trailer. I watched it like 5 times on repeat. The inclusion of Bohemian Rhapsody was just phenomenal. It was perfectly edited and now I just cannot wait for the film itself. However I feel the trailers are skipping over certain characters like Enchantress. But I guess that would make it better as they are not giving away a lot of the film. 
Let's see... I guess I am excited for my birthday. I'm going to be 19 this year, so I'll probably feel no different to my usual self. But I guess it will be an excuse to get the gang back together and that always makes me happy, because I love my friends. Plus I booked that time off work so that means no stress of time to hang out and stuff.
I would say I am excited to finish my apprenticeship, as I will begin full time employment, but I would also have more responsibility which I'm not sure about. But they all seem very supportive so I guess I'll get the hang of it. I like organising things so I always plan how I'd do things when I would be in that position. However I tend to plan more than what I do, and I never really stick to my plans, so I am a little worried about that. This is exciting for me though because it would be my first proper job, where I get paid full time. And I am hoping to save all of this for a place to live and driving lessons and basic life shiz. 
Other than that I guess I'm not really excited for much. So what I thought would be quite an interesting post when I started turned out pretty shit. Mainly I am excited for things I can watch. (Such as Sherlock, I will always be excited for Sherlock) But there isn't much I can say about that. 
Sorry for wasting your time, and thank you for wasting my time. See you when I see you!

Instagram Fan?

Hello! And I'm trying to keep at least one of my resolutions this year. To blog more. But it's only 9 days into the year so anything can happen. Stick around to find out. Today we are going to be discussing the app Instagram. If you could not guess from the title of the post. 

If you have known me a long time, you would come to the knowledge that I never liked instagram. I didn't want to be a pretentious person who posted pictures of what they were eating (the picture to the left so totally doesn't show me doing just that) and using obnoxious hashtags, because I have a motto in life. Hashtags should only be used for numbers. And I had made it perfectly clear that I had never intended on using this app, because if I wanted to share a picture, I would just do so on facebook. 

But then my sister happened. One day she decided that I needed to have instagram, and created me an account. Then she posted for me. And liked all of her own posts to make herself seem more popular. People started to think it was me, and my friends who had instagram started following me. So I decided to take over because when Hal had posted she used hashtags. And I didn't want people thinking that was me. To the left is the first picture she instagrammed (with the hashtags now removed of course). And in fairness it was a rather cute picture. 

From then I knew if I wasn't to post she was going to do it for me. So I posted my next picture. After that you can kind of guess what happened. I was a little bit addicted. Mainly because I enjoyed the editing of photos aspect because they came with cool filters and you had the ability to make a crappy photo you took look half decent. Now I post kind of often the little random happenings of my day. 

If you would like to follow me on instagram (if you don't I'm not really bothered but I feel if you want to know more about me, and let's face it my blogging will not be as on point as my picture sharing, you might as well just stalk me there). My name is needstogrowup but I'm sure if you type in Elli Mae it will come up. It will look like this. And if it doesn't I have either updated it since then, or someone is pretending to be me. But I really doubt the latter. 

So to make this post a bit more interesting let's have a look at some of the instagram posts. Let's start with the one that has currently received the most likes. Ah where my fringe curve was on point. I don't know why this has received the most likes, personally I would have liked it to be the one on the right because it is just so darn cute, but I guess the people of instagram just appreciate a good hair swoop.  

Another thing I like about the app is the collages you can make, so when I'm having trouble deciding which picture best represents my feelings about the activity I have just completed I can instead share an array of pictures to fully show the awesomeness. 

I guess that should be it for now, I hope that has distracted you from what you are supposed to be doing. See you when I see you!

Failing At Life (2016 Edition)

Wow. It's 2016. So time I guess to partake in the tradition that everyone likes to call. Failing at Life (aka. Resolutions). Last year I set myself some tasks for this year so let's see how well those turned out and make plans for this year which, judging by my previous attempts, will not happen. But I guess it's nice to at least come up with some kind of goal. Also sorry again for not posting very often. I am a failure of a human being as this post will probably point out. Here goes. 

So last year my first task was to lose weight. (Well looking back I actually made a typo and put loose weight, haha silly me). The classic of new year's resolutions. Did that happen? Hang on let me check. No. The answer is no. But hey at least I didn't put on any weight. I am at a constant. Woop! However, I increasingly hate the way I look. Mainly the part that I like to call chubb. The stomach's the worst, then my thighs, and  my boobs need to shrink. I want to wear checked shirts without the buttons straining around the chest area, is that so much to ask? This year of 2016 I would like to become better with exercising and eating healthier and being comfortable with my body image. So back onto the list you go impossible task because I do not have the right mindset. 

Onto to the second task which was using money wisely. And I would say I have completed this pretty well. I actually have money saved up in my bank account, not enough to do anything significant with though. There have also been times where I have gone against buying something for the greater good of my end goal, but looking at this (Please turn your attention to the picture on the left) there have been a few slip ups. Awkward...But overall I would give this a tick as I'm not poor as fuck. I just can't move out which is what I was going to do this for. We'll get there. One day. 

Number 3 was the one I can happily say I succeeded at. Future plan! As you should all be aware of by now I have actually made progress in my career move as I am an apprentice in a nursery (which is like my ideal job) and by July I should be qualified to have a full time job there. They have also offered me this full time position so yay! And I think I would like to train further. The other parts of the plan I am not so sure about. Moving out: well nobody would like to move in with me so I have no clue. Kids and Stuff: not for a while. So my motivation is still at a low but I don't really care. I'm happy where I am at the minute. ish...

Well task 4 was always so certain in my mind. But it didn't happen. I think when I was told I wasn't even allowed to get tested until I was 18 frustrated me so much that I just had to know, but since I've turned 18 I've been more relaxed about it. because I now know that I can just go make an appointment when I am ready. I don't need to know just yet. I have other things to worry about first. Like job, moving out, the possibility of learning to drive, relationship shiz. 

And finally task 5. Do well in 6th form. And my response to this is. HAHAHAHAHA. Fuck that shit. I mean I am proud of 2 of my results. The 3rd well there were aspects I was proud of, like the fact I didn't completely fail the exam I cried in for an hour (personally I think it was because I told the examiner to have a nice day). But I guess this one doesn't really matter so much because 3 went pretty well and I didn't need A-levels for that. However it turns out I needed a GSCE in ICT which I do not have. So resit exam for me! 

Reading back through them were pretty funny because it reminded me how much of a failure I am. So why not make a new list so future Elli can have a laugh in 2017. 

One: Lose weight. Same as always, like what I said earlier. Blahblah blah.
Two: Consider driving lessons. Since I got my job I considered driving a lot. I feel like it would make my life a little bit easier, and it would help if I moved out if I could drive so then where I lived wouldn't be as much of an issue.
Three: Save money for moving out and everything you need to have for driving (lessons, test, insurance, car etc.). As I would like to be able to actually afford the things I plan for. 
Four: Pass my level 2 Apprenticeship. Because obviously I would like to continue working there. 
Five: Be less angry. I can be a very angry person when I want to be, and I hate that side of me. So this year I would like to be more considerate of others when I am having my emotional messes. (I mean I have already kind of failed this already but starting from now I wish to be better). 
Six: Be more social. Since everyone finished 6th form and we all went our separate ways I feel like it's harder to connect with my friends. Because I can't really talk about my work and I don't do anything else I find making conversations difficult in online form. But no-one is really around, or we don't have the time, to talk face to face which is easier. I want to try though. Because my friends are amazing and I don't want to lose them. I would like to take this opportunity to tell them that if I don't talk to you for a while, I'm still here for you. I haven't forgotten about you, I just don't know how to entertain you in a conversation. 
Seven: Blog more. I have sucked at blogging the past 5 months, and I want that to change, because this used to make me so happy. It was a way for me to just escape everything. So I am going to try harder to get out a post at least once a month. But my aim is once a week. 

So that's my seven resolutions. I love the number seven. Don't know why. I just think when people are making lists it is underused. But you have probably figured out I love seven from my Magnificent 7 series. Which is my listing off my favourite things like villains, confectionary and even colours. You can check them all out by looking through my previous posts. Sneaky plug for you there.

Well I hope that has distracted you all from what you are supposed to be doing right now. Thanks for reading. 

See you when I see you!